I will make music to the Lord(always)! Judges5:3

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Switch Blog...

2006-11-14T16:57:00.000+08:00

Due to the inconvinience of Blogger, I've change my blog to Multiply which allow me to post blogs, my favorite musics, videos, photos etc.

My new blog address: http://josetanks.multiply.com

Thanks for viewing my blog and wish to see your apprearance in Multiply also. God bless!

Joseph Tan

Mission Impossible...

2006-11-14T09:18:00.000+08:00

(007 music...)

"Dude, welcome to the mission impossible world. Press start menu in the camera. (My mom's face pop-up from the camera screen and saying):'Son, I gonna go for a Hi-Tea this sunday-12/11 and you have to take my place as a conductor for the coming choir practice ya?' Please throw the camera away. It'll explode in 30 seconds... Boom!"

I've learned some basic conductor skill...so that's no big problem in conducting... but when the day comes, I've just realise the pianist is not around and the other one is ME! No other pianist know how to play this song... That's how the impossible mission started...

I show them the version that other choir sang. And I correct them in the tuning part...and then we sing with the CD... I thought that's all...I'm done...NO!! Some didn't know their melody well...So I'm like running over to the piano and to the conductor stand like crazy... Luckily I got the wireless mic...if not, I must have fall off...

And, some request to sing with the piano instead of CD because the CD version is too loud, they can't hear what they sing... So, I play the piano, they sing without conductor... wow...that's the worst experience of conducting choir...and playing the piano AT THE SAME TIME!!!

However, I manage to end up the practice beautifully... and that's of course by God's grace and I've learned that I have to force the other pianists to learn the song also just in case the same thing happen again....

Well, fuh...mission accomplish...

Divorce.....?

2006-11-02T11:49:00.000+08:00

手牵手

2006-11-01T14:14:00.000+08:00

http://s41.photobucket.com/albums/e259/josetanks/?action=view¤t=handinhand.flv

手牵手 Hand-In-Hand

这世界乍看之下有点灰(蔡琴)
你微笑的脸有些疲惫(王力宏)
抬起头天空就要亮起来(许茹云)
不要放弃你的希望和期待(孙燕姿)
沙漠中的一滴泪化成绿洲的湖水(周华健林慧萍)
真心若能被看见梦会实现(伍思凯)
手牵手我的朋友(庾澄庆)
爱永远在你左右(庾澄庆李心洁)
不要再恐惧绝不要放弃这一切将会度过(张信哲顺子)
因为你和我才有明天的彩虹(陶子吴宗宪)
手牵手我的朋友(energy)
爱永远在你左右(b.a.d)
这一刻不要躲在害怕后面(张宇)
这个世界需要多一点信念(萧亚轩)
那尘埃不会真的将你打败(蔡依林)
你将会意外生命的光彩(江慧)
风雨过去那一天悲伤就要停下来(游鸿明苏芮)
感觉你身边的爱它存在(动力火车)
手牵手我的朋友爱永远在你左右(张清芳范逸臣)
不要再恐惧也不要放弃(周杰伦)
这一切将会度过因为你和我才有明天的彩虹(合唱)
我的手握着温暖的火种(王力宏)
散发一点光和热就看到笑容(陶喆)
手牵手我的朋友(徐若瑄)
爱永远在你左右(信乐团)
不要再恐惧也不要放弃(tension)
这一切将会度过(迪克牛仔)
因为你和我才有明天的彩虹(庾澄庆彭佳慧)
手牵手我的朋友爱永远在你左右不要再恐惧也不要放弃这一切将会度过因为你和我才有明天的彩虹(合唱)
手牵手我的朋友(李汶麻吉弟弟)
爱永远在你左右(李汶 s.h.e)
手牵手一起度过(可米小子)
爱永远在你左右(周渝民朱孝天)
手牵手我的朋友爱永远在你左右不要再恐惧也不要放弃这一切将会度过牵着我的手看见明天的彩虹手牵手我的朋友爱永远在你左右手牵手我的朋友(王力宏陶喆)

Promises...

2006-11-01T09:53:00.000+08:00

Dear all,
I'll keep all my promises,
Like the rainbow in the sky.

Refresh myself everyday to remember what I've promised;
Allow myself to think "How to accomplish the promises";
Ideal way to do all things;
No something that will hurt you;
Be the best of whatever I am;
Open heart to let the receipient receive it gladly;
With a humble heart!

I won't forget what I've made by following those 7 steps that I listed above.

I'm here when you need me!

Sincerely,
Joseph

哲学...

2006-11-01T09:42:00.000+08:00

1. 是时候放下，就不该捉紧不放；
是时候捉紧，就不该随意放手.

2. 忍一时，风平浪静；
退一步，海扩天空。

3. 上帝之所以把你最心爱的拿走；
是要叫你学会：“以后要珍惜！”

4. 现在没有，不代表以后没有～有些事情，要等待；
现在有，不代表永远拥有～每件事情，要珍惜。

5. 珍惜你身边的每个人、每一件事、每一分、每一秒；
别等到失去后，才后悔。后悔，也来不及了！

6. 该过去的，就让它过去；别活在“过去”里。
保留着“过去”，只让自己和身边人，更伤心、辛苦。

7. 学习如何在各种情况，让自己、身边的人，自在。

What I received?

2006-11-01T09:41:00.000+08:00

Passed monday, I was in Pastor Tong's talk. Actually, every monday, I'll be there. I learned aload!

He spoke about when is the preacher first came to China and spread the gospel to chinese. It's in 7th century. There's one place called "Bei Lin Gong" in Xi An. There's one stone in the muzeum which recorded the incident that a group of christian came to China and preach in the palace. So, Buddhism is not the first religion which 1st came to China!

But why Chinese didn't believe in Christianity? because those who preach is white, those who sold opium to them, also white! They refuse the religion that gave/preach by white. and they want to find their own. and they found Budhism...that's why they consider Buddhism as their religion.(and if you know history, Biddhism 1st came from....??? India! Not China also...)

Then Pastor Tong go ahead and talk about why Joseph, a righteous young fellow, who listen to his father's word to bring food to the brothers and sold to Eygyt...That's unfair to him? and he also talked about the incident where Joseph face temptation.

Joseph is the 1st young man, who think properly and draw himself away from temptation! He'll be our role model.

1. Say 'NO' to those who have the higher post then we do. When the lady, Joseph's master's wife, came and tempt him, he say 'NO'! You have to have extra courage to say that!She's somone who higher than you that you should respect...BUT not following blindly!

2. Joseph actually faced many temptation in the same incident, not only sex. First, if Joseph sleep with the lady, the lady will tell her husband that how great this servant is, and may let Joseph gain a higher salary; 2nd, the lady'll oppose him to a higher post.. Addition in our salary and get a higher post, is what the youths today looking for! BUT if the way to gain this, is by doing wrong things, we might have to consider Joseph's way! RUN!

3. He, Joseph, said:"How could I sin against Jehovah, my Lord?!". If he have such a morality so young, can speak this kind of words, where did he learned from? when? It's from Jacob! Since young, Joseph obedient to his father, listen and follow what the father teached him. And, of course that Joseph must also built up his relationship with God closely. Because whenever the Bible speak about "Joseph", there's one phrase following :"Jehovah be with Joseph."

4. A saint is not someone who won't sin, but a man who have a GREAT sensitivity to a small sin! - Kelvin. Joseph is a saint, because he has great sensitivity against "things that his Lord dislike"!

5. Marriage is: Sacrifice yourself; gain/enjoy something from your other half.
婚姻是：一方牺牲自己；一方从你得着。 I gave/sacrifise myself to you, and I gain/enjoy from you.

6. Human, when there's love, then sex;
other creature, there's only sex, no love.

7. Fake love: If I can't love, I hate;
True love: Even I can't get his/her love, I still bless him/her.

Honda choir!!! Great!!!

2006-10-30T16:31:00.000+08:00

Choir-Honda - video powered by Metacafe

Must view this!!!

Ants

2006-10-30T15:38:00.000+08:00

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Ants' house in my sis's shoe!! My goodness!!! Have a look... Terrible! Horrible! Vegetable!!!

But praise the Lord for she realised it and didn't wear it to school...if not, what can you imagine?!?!!

Yeah, God bless us not only in big things, small things as in "which shoe to wear", He also take care!!!

Amen!

Read this

2006-10-29T21:15:00.000+08:00

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Well, after reading this, you still want to use those? Actually personally thinking it is not the problem of amount of "cancer-agent" inside those products... what we should take into account is HOW we use those!!!

Actually what we use daily, like hair shampoo, body shampoo, facial cleaser even toothpaste had a certain amount of chemicals...there's one suggestion I heard from a proffesional(forgot the name..hehe..):

- If you are brushing teeth, put your toothpaste on your brush, use some water to put it equally on toothbrush...it somehow balancing the chemicals and won't damage your tooth in a short time...
- If you are washing face/body/hair, put the cleanser/shampoos on your palm, put some water on it and rub it on your hand till there's bubbles come out, then only you put on your face/body/hair...

Is it very true? I don't know but I think it's right...hehe...ya, just use your daily things carefully and take care of yourself and your family.

God bless!

- Joseph

The O.T.

2006-10-27T09:25:00.000+08:00

Those working or those who haven't work yet, you know what is O.T. ... That's over-time work.

I had it last night... tiring... but still have to work... feel like sleeping but can't! There's already morning section which enough to make your neck and your back pain, make your eyes tired... and you must continue it night where usually people resting in home, watching tv... can you imagine how bad O.T. is? I can, now and I hate it... hahaha...

Well, my O.T. wasn't that bad... cos i'm alone in my office... bos not here nor any colleagues.. so I can focus and done all things really fast... Thank Lord!!

Oh, and recently I keep thinking those which no need to think so much... still haven't get off from it... I know i have to but just can't get out... Friends, pls pray for me so that i can focus that things that I have to think, and learn to think those which is important not all this nonsence... thx...

That's all for now, my dear blog...

Repost story...

2006-10-22T19:25:00.000+08:00

一颗种子的故事

一颗种子，长期在太阳和雨水下，会成长。。。
渐渐长成幼苗；
在这种关键时刻，竟然没有了太阳的照耀，
缺乏了雨水的滋润。。。

那幼苗，就这样重重的受到打击。。。

若这样的情况继续下去，
那颗幼苗会面对很多的挣扎，
而且会是一段很长的挣扎期。。。

最后，才慢慢的，痛苦的，死去。。。

WARNING!!!

2006-10-21T13:14:00.000+08:00

Hey guys...

there's this virus roaming around MSN which wud give u lot of problems....

i heard it from my friend.

i think it works something like this:

Say i received a msn from a fren, asking me to open a certain link which goes something like this: "is that you in the photo? :". And so, i open it. And that page brought me to some company (according to a friend)...

Then, the virus will automatically send the same msg to the ppl on my contact list, and they wil got the virus if they open the link...

and according to another friend, he said that if your laptop is guarded and ur anti-virus program has the newest virus definition, scan ur computer and then the program will detect and delete the virus.

and then, according to another friend, there are 2 files that can't be deleted, so u got to go online to activate some anyi-virus new version thingy then only can delete.

So ya, just take note. don't open that weird link. it's some chain virus thingey =) very naughty...

Growing up(Repost)

2006-10-19T09:28:00.000+08:00

The first day of school our professor introduced
himself and challenged us to get to know
someone we didn't already know. I stood up to
look around when a gentle hand touched my
shoulder.
I turned around to find a wrinkled, little old lady
beaming up at me with a smile that lit up her
entire being.
She said, "Hi handsome. My name is Rose.I'm
eighty-seven years old. Can I give you a hug?" I
laughed and enthusiastically responded, "Of
course you may!" and she gave me a giant
squeeze.
"Why are you in college at such a young, innocent
age?" I asked.She jokingly replied, "I'm here to
meet a rich husband, get married, and have a
couple of kids..."
"No seriously," I asked. I was curious what may
have motivated her to be taking on this challenge
at her age.
"I always dreamed of having a college education
and now I'm getting one!"she told me.
After class we walked to the student union
building and shared a chocolate milkshake.
We became instant friends. Every day for the
next three months we would leave class together
and talk nonstop. I was always mesmerized
listening to this "time machine" as she shared her
wisdom and experience with me.Over the course
of the year, Rose became a campus icon and she
easily made friends wherever she went.
She loved to dress up and she reveled in the
attention bestowed upon her from the other
students. She was living it up.
At! The end of the semester we invited Rose to
speak at our football banquet.I'll never forget
what she taught us. She was introduced and
stepped up to the podium As she began to
deliver her prepared speech, she dropped her
three by five cards on the floor.Frustrated and a
little embarrassed she leaned into the
microphone and simply said, "I'm sorry I'm so
jittery. I gave up beer for Lent and this whiskey is
killing me! I'll never get my speech back in order
so let me just tell you what I know."
As we laughed she cleared her throat and
began, "We do not stop playing because we are
old; we grow old because we stop playing.There
are only four secrets to staying young, being
happy, and achieving success. You have to laugh
and find humor every day. You've got to have a
dream. When you lose your dreams, you die.We
have so many people walking around who are
dead and don't even know it!
There is a huge difference between growing older
and growing up.If you are nineteen years old and
lie in bed for one full year and don't do one
productive thing, you will turn twenty years old. If
I am eighty-seven years old and stay in bed for a
year and never do anything I will turn eighty-eight.
Anybody can grow older. That doesn't take any
talent or ability. The idea is to grow up by always
finding opportunity in change. Have no regrets.
The elderly usually don't have regrets for what we
did, but rather for things we did not do. The only
people who fear death are those with Regrets."
She concluded her speech by courageously
singing "The Rose."
She challenged each of us to study the lyrics and
live them out in our daily lives.At the year's end
Rose finished the college degree she had begun
all those years ago.
One week after graduation Rose died peacefully in
her sleep.
Over two thousand college students attended her
funeral in tribute to the wonderful woman who
taught by example that it's never too late to be
all you can possibly be.
When you finish reading this, please send this
peaceful word of advice to your friends and
family, they'll really enjoy it!
These words have been passed along in loving
memory of ROSE.

REMEMBER, GROWING OLDER IS
MANDATORY.
GROWING UP IS OPTIONAL.

We make a Living by what we get, We make a
Life by what we give.

God promises a safe landing, not a calm passage.
If God brings you to it,
He will bring you through it

Disturbance..

2006-10-18T17:15:00.000+08:00

I realised...

If I think something that I do will disturb another, I won't do it even if I want
Including eating - visually disturb, phone calling, sms, reply a sms, msn reply, gmail chat, skype...

If I think those that I want to do will disturb you, I won't do it! Even I want to do it very very much...

... ... ... ...

2006-10-18T08:59:00.000+08:00

我终于发现自己其实很软弱…
我，看起来坚强，其实，不然…
认为自己能很快的站起来；
却又趴在地上，不愿起来…

一件小小的事情，
足以让我痛苦万分；
曾经以多么伟大的话来安慰人，
却一句也派不上用场…

这几个星期内，
我完全不能做事、不专心、不投入…

我最爱做的事，我都做不成；
最爱吃的，我吃不下；
最爱玩的，不想玩…

我在想：
怎么一件事/人可以那么残忍？那么无情？那么自私？

一件小事，真的是很小的事，也在短时间内，抽完我的一切…连我的笑容，也越来越假…嘴在笑；心在哭…

原来我是那么的软弱、懦弱…

我相信神藉着这件事，会让我更成长…但是，这个过程，实在难以度过…

我还有好多话…藏在心中…难以以文字一一形容…只有我跟神知道…

我发觉，
一个能真正帮助自己的人，却是逃避自己最远的人…
一个愿意帮助自己的人，也是逃避自己最远的人…

真可笑…哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈…

… … …(不断的思索、思索那条道路… Unstopable searching, searching THE WAY...)… … … … … … … … … … … … …

ST. FRANCIS'S PRAYER

2006-10-16T14:52:00.000+08:00

Lord, make me a channel of thy peace -
that where there is hatred, I may bring love-
that where there is wrong, I may bring the spirit of forgiveness-
that where there is discord, I may bring harmony-
that where there is error, I may bring truth-
that where there is doubt, I may bring faith-
that where there is despair, I may bring hope-
that where there is shadows, I may bring light-
that where there is sadness, I may bring joy.

Lord, grant that I may seek rather to comfort than to be comforted-
To understand, than understood-
To love, than to be loved

For it is by self-forgetting that one finds. It is by forgiving that one is forgiven.
It is by dying that one awakens to the Eternal Life. Amen.

圣法兰西斯的祷告
主，让我做你的和平之子
在憎恨之处播下你的爱；
在绝望之处播下你的盼望，
在忧愁之处播下你的欢愉；
在幽暗之处播下你的光明。

哦，主啊！使我少为自己求，
少求爱，但求全心付出爱；
在舍去时，我们便有所得，
在赦免时，我们便蒙赦免；

在死亡时我们便重生，进入永恒。

A great great example set...

2006-10-11T11:35:00.000+08:00

I saw this in a christian magazine. Thought it'll be nice to share with my fellow friends on-line.

Say "No" to Premarital Sex

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Dear future son or daughter,

I don’t know how you look like and what to call you yet, but I surely look forward to seeing you live life the way it’s meant to be lived. I’m still a teenager and these are the best years of my life. I want you to enjoy your teenager years too and live it to the fullest in the way God wants you to. There’s this thing called ‘abstinence’ which I want you to learn. Do not let a moment of carelessness spoil a wonderful future God has for you.

Let me set this straight. Sex should happen after marriage. It is a gift from our Father to us to celebrate marriage. It should not be taken lightly or casually, instead it must be treasured. So, save the best for the person whom you love and spend the rest of your life with. It’s a great thing to present yourself as an unopened gift to your loved one. You would want him/her to be a virgin too wouldn’t you? Be careful of what the world says; be smart, and help your friends understand that too. Please keep my words, you’ll never regret.

As I was saying, enjoy your teenage years while you can. The consequences of sex can be life altering and can literally destroy you. Spend your years seeking something else; this is an exciting time where you will discover yourself! Seek God with all your heart and He has lots to show you. Do not fall into the traps of early pregnancy or STD’s. commit to God, and allow Him to help you as you make your DECISIONS.

Sex has its consequences. It can be the most beautiful experience, but if abused, it can be a regrettable decision for the rest of your life. Keep your life and body pure for God and let your wedding night counts! A long-awaited present is the most satisfying one! So, keep yourself pure and abstain from sex before marriage. It will ultimately be one of the best decisions you will ever make!

Love,
Dad

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Dear Rainoa,

Hey, Mommy here! I know you are not born yet, but I have decided to write to you, and hope that this letter can be passed to you when you are in your teenage years. My main purpose in writing this letter is to explain about premarital sex.

Okay, to get to the point, I need to warn you that premarital sex can ruin your dreams, hopes and future. You might get pregnant, and I guarantee that a guy who con you to bed is the worst guy ever, for he is taking away what is most precious to you, your virginity. I do not know what kind of sex diseases will surface in the future but presently, it’s bad enough. Mommy really loves you and will do anything to protect you from all Satan’s works.

Mommy believes what a relationship needs is love (of one’s inner beauty), trust (having faith each other), understanding (accepting each other) and most importantly, respect (the right to abstain from having sex until marriage.) Yup, relationship needs a lot of patience and self-discipline.

I am 18 now, and I have never been involve in a relationship. I think I am really being blessed by God, because He has shielded me from all pains and hurts that come with IMMATURE RELATIONSHIP. Since I was young, I have always had this wish that my first boyfriend will be my bridegroom, walking down the church aisle with me. Isn’t that sweet? You may think it is just a foolish dream but I am working on it, to find your Daddy ‘as God’s will.’

Rain, getting into a relationship after your teenage years is one of the best way to prevent you from premarital sex. It is hard, and sometimes you may get mocked by your peers, but do not despair because God is your Rock. I pray that God will bless your teenage years with happy memories.

I love you!

With love
Mommy

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*Well, how was it? The highlithed ones are those I think very very nice and have to be remembered all times! Though you might not agree some point but I think most of the point, I can accept. I like this one:" save the best for the person whom you love and spend the rest of your life with."

Save the best for the person whom you love! Though we doesn't know who is "he"/"she" but God always provides us the best one at the best time!

Just like a baby. As a parents, you can gift him an unsafe toy cos he might think it is a food to eat and accident happens; you'll give him some soft and safe toy to him right? even the baby wanted the "unsafe toy" very much, right? Only when the boy grow and realise the way to play those toy and have the consiousness that the toys cannot eat, you'll only give it to him, right?

Same case! We aren't mature enough to do something that only adult will do it better. If we want to do it anyway, without listen to God, the one who suffer is yourself!!

Hope this help you and let you learn alot, like i do!
God bless!

joseph

...

2006-10-05T09:05:00.000+08:00

昨晚，我脑子不断转，令到我想“吐血”…既然“吐不出”，也用了笔墨，吐在我的日记里…就在要吐完前，有冲动写一篇四行诗来形容我的感受：

"
心在流血
像水不断
不必隐藏
就在心(中)"

“在哪里？在我心中！”

这一段四行诗有“内涵”的。看看谁猜到咯！
Tips: (1x1)+(2x2)+(3x3)+(4x4)= _ _ “在哪里？在我心中！”

*明白的，不一定要讲，也不必有任何表示并猜测…我只希望，读着的人，明白我，就够了！

憎恨 Hatred...

2006-10-04T18:18:00.000+08:00

憎恨，已经辖制了我的脑、我的心；无法以理性超越…
我恨我自己；
我自己做过的错误决定、
我自己的无知、
我自己无能的“控制力”、
我自己的愚蠢、
我自己看些不该看的；想些不该想的；做些不该做的…
… … … … … … …

我无法超越自己…
我也开始恨人…
到一种程度，只要看到那个人、或想起那个人，心就非常“不爽”！想立刻发泄！

最近的我，很情绪化…小小的事情，可以让我的“火山爆发”…也许没有人看得出，但的确如此…

我想找人分享，但又没有人选…有人选了，却又不知从何说起…所以，也干脆不说了…

我想逃避…不要去想这些问题…但，偏偏在我的灵修时段，每一样我不想想的，都一一在我眼前出现…也许太安静，我的脑就开始转动…也因此，我不想“安静”了…我希望，每时每刻，我身旁都有人，这样，我的脑就受到控制，而不想太多…

最终，我逃避“灵修”…求主怜悯…我好自私…总想到自己…

*我要如何面对要如何解决
自己的愚蠢自己的无知
害怕自己无法面对
迷茫的生活步骤
只希望 ev'rything will be "ok"...

Tired and pain...

2006-10-02T11:46:00.000+08:00

There's time that human will get tired. Tired of works to be done, assignments that waiting for you to do, projects and even relationship.

Well, tired in working things and assignments, studies, p[rojects are quite common and most of the people can deal with this kind of stress easily. For instance, listen to some soft music to release your anger, sports... but how about tired in a relationship?

In a friendship, if two of them, X and Y are two "different kind" of person but had been really good friends for years...Finally one day, Y can't stand of X's attitude, tired of that kind of characteristic that X has... What can Y do?

- Avoid to meet X?
- Slowly don't talking to X?
- what?

what can Y do? The ways above listed, aren't the best way...Those will cause pain in both sides! The stress when come to relationships! Of course, you can't change a person's attitude easily. Rather than changing X's attitude (probably can take years or forever), Y can change his mind! Change his thinking towards X!

By this way, Y will feel better. Not that much stress when talking to X and X perhaps will think:"wow, he can actually understand my situation...perhaps I should change my attitude also..." You see! Change your own thinking, and there most likely a miracle happen!

*Nobody wants pain! Especially in a relationships! So, if you think you can't change the other one, change yourself!

God bless!

Marriages? Boy and Girl relatioship?

2006-10-01T20:03:00.000+08:00

I've attended 2 marriages in a day, which was last saturday. I've got an important point that what had the pastor shared in that two sermons...

Firstly, he talks about why women is created. The bible said that:

[And the LORD God said, It is not good that the man should be alone; I will make him an help meet for him. Gen2:18]

and later on, the Lord created women from man. Well, what was the orriginal purpose was God's creation of women? Is to help the man! See? "I will make him an help meet for him"... Well, it's the only purpose of women, as a helper? of man?

Not exactly. The "helper" in this verse can be described as "support"! Whatever the husband do, the wife will support him. It also somehow pointed out that man can't live ALONE! He needs help! So, dear wives in the world, don't think you are useless in your family! Absolutely no! Man can't lives without you! See? The bible verse said that "it is no good that the man should be alone..." Therefore, being supportive is a sign that show you love him!

[And the LORD God caused a deep sleep to fall upon Adam, and he slept: and he took one of his ribs, and closed up the flesh instead thereof; Gen 2:21]

Why the Lord took the rib? not bones from the head nor leg nor any other parts of the man? The pastor said there's one japanese theologist said this:

[If God took the bone from the head to create women,

women will think to conquer man's mind;

If God took the bone from the head to creat women,

man will think to step on women;

then why God took rib to create "her"?

Because rib is the bone that close to "his" heart. This of course meaning man shall protect their women from harms! and love her with all your heart! cause the Lord took your rib which close to heart and you protect her meaning you are protecting your heart! Your sweet heart!]

In the bible, Paul said this:

5:22
Wives, submit yourselves unto your own husbands, as unto the Lord.

5:23
For the husband is the head of the wife, even as Christ is the head of the church: and he is the saviour of the body.

5:24
Therefore as the church is subject unto Christ, so let the wives be to their own husbands in every thing.

5:25
Husbands, love your wives, even as Christ also loved the church, and gave himself for it;

5:26
That he might sanctify and cleanse it with the washing of water by the word,

5:27
That he might present it to himself a glorious church, not having spot, or wrinkle, or any such thing; but that it should be holy and without blemish.

5:28
So ought men to love their wives as their own bodies. He that loveth his wife loveth himself.

5:29
For no man ever yet hated his own flesh; but nourisheth and cherisheth it, even as the Lord the church:

5:30
For we are members of his body, of his flesh, and of his bones.

5:31
For this cause shall a man leave his father and mother, and shall be joined unto his wife, and they two shall be one flesh.

5:32
This is a great mystery: but I speak concerning Christ and the church.

5:33
Nevertheless let every one of you in particular so love his wife even as himself; and the wife see that she reverence her husband.

Chapter 3: The greatest happiness~!

2006-09-28T18:53:00.000+08:00

"Kenny, I missed you this years... though I have so many friends here and there's a guy treat me very well.. But I don't have the same feeling to him... I'm still missing you very much..."

Claudine keep saying this in the past five years...

~~~God really come at the best time..~~~

Kenny met a few girls too... but they just doesn't treat him as Claudine does..though he does grew in the light of God but he feels that he has no gift to be single for God and he desire to build a family...

~~One day, particularly at 30th of September,~~

Kenny's owner carelessly brang Kenny out to a wedding ceremony. Kenny's owner is the pianist of the wedding ceremony. After the ceremony, Kenny's owner go and meet Claudine's owner... Her owner brang her too..

Kenny: CLAUDINE! Is that you?
Claudine: er... KENNY!!! I missed you very much!!!
Kenny: Me too! Claudine, I must tell you this!
Claudine: wat....
Kenny: I love you! Will you marry me?
Claudine: (surprisingly)...
Kenny: I know it's kind of...rush and no time to let you think and...
Claudine: YES!
Kenny: Hah? I can't hear you!
Claudine: YES!!!!!

Kenny's owner gave Kenny to Claudine's owner... and both of them live happily ever after...

*Specially writing for _ _ _ e _ a.

Chapter 2: After she leaves...

2006-09-28T09:42:00.000+08:00

"Claudine, how are you today? Are you happy with the new owner? I think you are and I really hope so... As for me, same as I before meeting you...Stay in the drawer everyday... I miss you very much..."

Kenny keep talking to himself everyday. He hurt. Hurt badly...

"Claudine, though I'm apart from you, but you are always my dearest darling you know? Do you remember the jokes that I told you? and you promised me to be my 'wife'? Actually, I was so worry that I might hurt you again...I don't really feel that I can keep the promises 'as your husband'... and I always feel that we'll apart someday and it'll probably good for you cos I think 'be with me, you'll suffer cos I'm the one who cut on you, campur tangan in your life..' you'll get hurt and I don't wanna hurt you...cos I love you..."

He miss her everyday, every moment...keeps refresh the sweetest moment they spent together and he smile...

"Though I'm hurt, I won't let you get hurt! I rather myself to get suffer all this days than let us suffer together... You are always in my deepest heart and my mind!"

"I hope we've made the right decision to be apart... we're still young...if God want us to be couple later, we'll be; if God doesn't want us t be, we'll only suffer even if we keep be together... Claudine, do you ever regret that you made that promise? Sometimes, I regret...but I'll try my best to keep those promises that I made..."

He prayed everytime after missing her...

"Lord, if she's the one for me, keep her for me untill the time comes..but at the meantime, draw my concentration on you! Let me put down all the desires to hold her hands and lift up my hands to you and hold yours! we might wrong when we made most of the decisions but I'm sure that I never believe the wrong God! You'll always prepare me the best things in the best time! Thank You Lord, in Jesus name I pray. Amen."

Everyday, he talk to himself and pray and talk to himself...never bored of missing somebody...sometimes he even feel glad that they are apart...and he actually grew and learn more about the Lord! He realised that in order to gain good relationships on the earth, you must build a good relationship to God!

"Lord, bless Claudine so that she'll also grow, in the light of You! In Jesus name I pray again. Amen!"

The story of a white clay and a key...

2006-09-26T12:44:00.000+08:00

Chapter 1: Meeting and knowing...

As you can see, this is what I am now...I am Claudine. 2 weeks ago, I was blank, white in color, a clay-strengthened clay...which means I have no use for most of the people... cos I can't be mold anymore... My function was soft and can be mold in any shape and dry and will be as hard as rock... but not anymore...I did't been mold by anyone and time passed, I dried and hard as a stone...ugly with only white in color...

One day, a man come and took me up... He wants to make something DIY... he look at me...I was so shame... 1st, I never been look by anyone for such loong time; 2nd, I'm USELESS!!! Then he took me to his room... He says, "what can I do with this white white thingy? It can't be mold anymore... " I agreed! He looked at me for such long time then he says, "color it? my color finished... what can I do on it?...(hours later...) CARV it!!!"

Oooh! I shouted. No! Carving means that the sharp sharp thing will cut my body and that is HURT! Fortunately, this man is a lazy person... he's too lazy to get a cutter...hahaha... and he says, "cutter will make the whole too big also and I don't have any craft knife!..." Oh, I'm so lucky! haha...

The man saw a key in his drawer. He says, "Oh well, since I have nothing sharp and this key has a little bit sharp point at the end there... well, just try it..." Oh no! "Mr. Key, can you bend your sharp point so that you won't hurt me?" I whisper to the key... And he says, "I have no idea how to bend. I'm hard, just like you, can't bend anyhow..." The man was about to use the key to cut me and he did a cut and says "Wow! It works! Ooh, I gotta have bath 1st...later will come back.."

THAT IS HURT! There's one cut on my body... "Sorry, I can't help you..."Key said. "I'm a useless thingy. I was a key of a cupboard and now no use already cos the cupboard's lock spoiled. Since that day on, I was lying in the drawer and never come out till today...and I was so happy somebody wanted to use me but I actually hurt you...and cutting clay isn't my function also!!! I'm so sorry..."

Wow, Mr. Key is an useless thing also! and abused by this stupid man. I told him my story... We're same kind, in the same boat... we chatted for a long time... and, he suddenly says, "Claudine, how if later I'll hurt you when the stupid fellow back?" Ooh! I never thought of this.. Well, I told him that I have to "ikut nasib" la... though it's hurt...

Minutes later, the man back. He decided to cut a heart shape on me. When he took up Kenny(Mr. Key's name), I saw tears in Kenny's eyes... I have it in my eyes too... and I heard a whisper, "I love you, Claudine..." I was like "Huh?!" and the man cut on my body again... I was sooo hurt... I saw Kenny say something but I can heard it cos it's too hurt...

Though it just few seconds, a brief ugly heart shape on me... It is hurting me so much already... The man stopped and look.. "It is ugly...not beautiful at all.."and started thinking again... "Claudine, how do you feel? Am I making you pain?" Kenny comforted. "Not really(though it is ssooooo painful, I'm not dare to tell him)... but I want to ask you one thing..."

Me: what were you saying when the stupid fellow took you up?
Kenny: erm... I love you?!
Me: But...how? why?
Kenny: I'm not sure... maybe we're so close and in a same situation.. and I have some deep feeling when I know that I have to hurt you though I doesn't mean to be..
Me: Actually I have the same feeling too... ...Oh the man come... Kenny, I love you too! I have you in my heart! so do your best on me!
Kenny: ...alright...(tears) sorry... but i'll do my best to make the best looking heart ever!

The man came... we keep on talking cos Kenny said it might decrease the pain... The man carv me by using Kenny... Harder each time... my speaking tone was up and down as when each time Kenny cut me harder and softer... I saw his tears non stop... He curi-curi wiped away the tears when he near me... I saw it and keeping this in my heart...

Hours and hours and my pain actually decrease... i felt that I'm really in love with him... "DONE! It is so pretty! Im sure _ _ _ _ _ _ will like it" I can't hear who is the name the man said...but I'm pretty?!

Me: Kenny! How am I looking~?!
Kenny: Wow! Nice! But are you still in pain...?
Me: No No! Am I really pretty?
Kenny: Ya! Of course! What for I lie to you? no pain already?

I'm speechless when the man took me up and look at me on the mirror... Wow! I am totally different from what i was! "Kenny! I love you! No pain already! Thanks for your caring..." The man then put us together in the man's drawer... Me and Kenny have sweetest time ever...

One saturday night, the man gave me away to somebody... since that day on, I never see Kenny again.. but i know that, he's always in my heart-the most beautiful heart on me!

"If I had the letters 'hrt', I can add 'ea' and get a 'heart' or a 'u' to get hurt. But I'd rather get 'hurt' than have a 'heart' without 'u'... Kenny, can you hear me?! I'm sure you will..."

*Well... I doesn't plan for a 'love story' at first but I feel that it'll be more interesting if it's so... actually what I really want to bring out is:

1st, Don't look down on yourself! No one in the world created useless by God! Though you might think you don't have any talent now, but it doesn't mean that you don't have any talent later! Like the clay! It doesn't function to be carved but it actually look so nice when it's done!

2nd, in a relationship, both must sacrifice! It might hurt sometimes cos 2 person are diiferent in their own way but both must learn to not making other pain...That is: either change yourself or change others. However, it's hard to change other... in order to "decrease the pain", try to change yourself! Like the key, you can't ask the key to bend but you can use "talking" to decrease and separate concentration on "pain"! Therefore, conversation and communication a relationship also!

Well, God bless you!

Does the society need God??

2006-09-20T17:29:00.000+08:00

Does the society need God??
this was my debate title for this coming sunday.Final round.
"Does the society need God?"

when we talking about this topic, we usually asking ourself,"do we believe in God", "why do you believe in God?"...........and many more...
My debate team are gathered by dif religion of ppl, some buddhist, some christian, and oso some that do not believe in religion....

So, i try to ask myself. Why do i need God??
This question i had ask many years before,and again i have to ask myself.
and the conclusion is, " I am thanksful that I believe in God,although I never saw Him or hear His voice b4,but i can feel His unsellfish and sacrificed LOVE."
Without God, I will never know where i come from, why am I here on this world,and oso where will I go after this life...........
life will be so meaningless when you dunno why u are here.We are just like rushing for a train,but never ask where is the destination.Life so short on this earth,and most of ourtime is sleep, study and doing something meaningless.no wonder ppl say Life is Bored.

During the time on searching more imformation for this title, many ppl said science and God are oftenly oppose each others. but the information told me,many of the great scientist such as Newton,Edison,Gebany.....are all devoted christian, and they say through the science the glory and appearence of God is revealed.In others word,Science is a gift from God for us to explore it, and through it we can know God more.

thank God for everything!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and again, God had strengthen my faith.........Amen!

*Repost from Leon.

Joseph: this is very nice! Christians, be strngthen;non-christian, don't you touched?! May God bless us all!

Youth! Look at here! Important points!

2006-09-11T23:53:00.000+08:00

I was in Stephen Tong's talk jyst now and he pointed useful tips for young people to life our lives!

Salvation is free(from God);victory, you have to work with God!
If it is God's will to let you do this, people who will involve will also get the same touch from God!
Wealth, is the effect but not the motive!
Do not serve your feelings! Cos it will change! But put the truth above all!
Those who are really clever/wisdom, won't show themselve as so; but those who always try to show himself to be clever/wisdom, showed he is only acting to be clever and actually stupid!
KAIROS-greek mythology, god of opportunity

"Running swiftly, balancing on the razor's edge, bald but with a lock of hair on his forehead, he wears no clothes; if you grasp him from the front, you might be able to hold him, but once he has moved on, nobody is able to hold him forever. "

Can describe "opportunity" very well! When you see him close to you, you must ready to hold him! but if you were late, realised his arrival slowly, you can't catch him anymore cos he has no hair behind to let you hold! He comes and left with his wings on his feet... Catch the opportunity whenever you have!

Hope you'll be bless after reading these! God bless!

What is prayer?

2006-09-07T11:11:00.000+08:00

Prayer is the battleground on which we meet the enemy head-on. As S.D Gordon says,

Prayer is man giving God a footing on the contested territory of this earth.
The man in full touch of purpose with God, praying, insistently praying
- that man is God's footing on the enemy's soil.
The man wholly given over to God gives him a new sub-headquarters on the battlefield from which to work out.
And the Holy Spirit within that man, on the new spot, will insist on the enemy's retreat in Jesus the Victor's name.

That is prayer.

Shall we not, every one of us, increase God's footing down upon His prodigal earth?

*Joseph: This is great! I just can't wait to share to you all after reading this on the website! Can you not say "AMEN" after reading this? Can you donothing after reading this? PRAY! NOW!

How long had you ran away from God? When is the last time you pray to God except "before eat, and before sleep" prayer?

Ezekiel 22:30 says "And I sought for a man among them, that should make up the hedge, and stand in the gap before Me for the land, that I should not destroy it: but I found none."

God is searching for people to "stand in the gap" and pray for protection, deliverance and help for others.

Can't you see needy are all around you? Do you know your friend is having a hard time this week? Do you know what is happening people around you? You don't, right? See their heart with the eyes of God!

FRIEND, STAND IN THE GAP!

Take a little time to read a big story

2006-09-04T23:59:00.000+08:00

A voyaging ship was wrecked during a storm at sea and only two of the men on it were able to swim to a small, desert like island.

The two survivors, not knowing what else to do, agree that they had no other recourse but to pray to God.

However, to find out whose prayer was more powerful, they agreed to divide the territory between them and stay on opposite sides of the island.

The first thing they prayed for was food. The next morning, the first man saw a fruit-bearing tree on his side of the land, and he was able to eat its fruit. The other man's parcel of land remained barren

After a week, the first man was lonely and he decided to pray for a wife. The next day, another ship was wrecked, and the only survivor was a woman who swam to his side of the land. On the other side of the island, there was nothing.

Soon the first man prayed for a house, clothes, more food. The next day, like magic, all of these were given to him. However, the second man still had nothing.

Finally, the first man prayed for a ship, so that he and his wife could leave the island. In the morning, he found a ship docked at his side of the island. The first man boarded the ship with his wife and decided to leave the second man on the island.

He considered the other man unworthy to receive God's blessings, since none of his prayers had been answered. As the ship wa s about to leave, the first man heard a voice from heaven booming, "Why are you leaving your companion on the island?"

"My blessings are mine alone, since I was the one who prayed for them," the first man answered. "His prayers were all unanswered and so he does not deserve anything."

"You are mistaken!" the voice rebuked him. "He had only one prayer, which I answered. If not for that, you would not have received any of my blessings"

"Tell me," the first man asked the voice, "what did he pray for that I should owe him anything?"

"He prayed that all your prayers be answered."

*touched*

For all we know, our blessings are not the fruits of our prayers alone, but those of another praying for us. When Jesus died on the cross he was thinking of you

*Joseph: who do you want to be? the first man or second man?

Remember what the Lord said to Abraham when He calls him to out from his father's home?

"I will bless those who bless you, but curse those who curse you.
And through you I will bless all the nations." Genesis12:3

In this case, the Lord will bless the first man and probably curse the second man. However the most important point is, Through you, God will bless the person around us and even all the nations!

Don't know how to bless others? Do the second man's prayer:

"Lord, please answer all the prayer request _ _ _ _ _ _ made as those are according to Your will. AMEN."

*fill the blanks with the persons' name no matter the person you LOVE or HATE!

God bless you!

Songs...

2006-09-03T19:40:00.000+08:00

感谢神,让我能连续两天作了两首歌. Praise the Lord for the inspiration! But it started of someone inspire me...

只因为祢

verse:
每当我离开祢不再回头
祢总是默默等待我
每当我犯罪时令祢伤心
祢总是以爱拥抱我

Bridge:
我曾有何时值祢那么爱我
我曾作何事值祢来爱我

Chorus:
只因为祢我还活着
不至于死在黑暗的幽谷
只因为祢我还活着
祢的爱永远不改变
28/8/06 11:57pm

Refuge Needed
O Rock divine Refuge dear
A shelter in the time of storm

Pre-Chorus:
Be Thou our helper ever hear
A shelter in the time of storm

Chorus:
Keep me keep me
as the apple of Your eyes
Hide me hide me
under the shadow of Your wings

Bridge:
We need not fear life's dark shadow
when we rest under the shadow of God's wings
29/8/06 11:08pm

*Praise the Lord!

aaaaaggggaaaaiiiiiiinnnn!!!!!!

2006-08-27T20:39:00.000+08:00

In the past posts, I wrote how I leave the Lord. and now i wanted to confess my sins for sins against Him(the same one), again! What?! Ya, again and I back to Him...again...

Lord, help me!

Friends around, pray for me! Thanks!
God bless!

Really good one!

2006-08-24T16:21:00.000+08:00

Perhaps you guys saw this before but I think the meanings are really good!

Sometimes it looks like something "GOOD" but actually is "EVIL"

You "teach"? actually you are "learn"-ing

What are you looking at? What am I looking at? I see "YOU" in "ME"! owh...

Again and again? God'll fight with us...one day...

2006-08-24T09:53:00.000+08:00

Again and again I leaved Him...
Again and again He draw me back, back to His side...
I can say nothing upon His patience on me...
Last night, He reminded me this:

In Joel’s book of prophecy, God declared: “I am in the midst of Israel . . . . My people shall never be put to shame” (2:27). But earlier in the chapter God promised to fight against His people. A plague of locusts would descend like a ravenous army on the nation (vv.2-11).

It’s hard to fathom that the Lord would fight against His chosen people. But Israel had given their affections to other gods. In fact, God had fought against them before. “Wherever they went out, the hand of the Lord was against them for calamity” (Judges 2:15). I have learned that if my own heart wanders away from God, I can count on Him to fight to bring me back. If I become proud and self-assured, if reading God’s Word and spending time in prayer seem like a waste of time, God will step in and deal with me.

God will fight against us for our good. He permits us to experience defeat so that we will listen to Him when He says, “Rend your heart, and not your garments; return to the Lord your God, for He is gracious and merciful, slow to anger, and of great kindness” (Joel 2:13).

Don’t wait for God to fight against you before you seek His face. Return to Him today. —Albert Lee—Albert Lee-->

Because our Father’s heart is grieved
Each time we go astray,
He lifts His chastening hand in love
To help us find His way. —D. De Haan

God’s hand of discipline is a hand of love.

"for He is gracious and merciful, slow to anger, and of great kindness” (Joel 2:13). "! Again and again He forgive me and again I sins Him... Why? I don't really intented to do such offence but I just done it...

"Lord, I'm not dare to promise You anything already. I can't prmise You anything! I always broke my own promise... Lord, guide me! Let the prmise that I made, like the rainbow in the sky, it never fade!"

When You Divorce Me, Carry Me Out in Your Arms

2006-08-19T12:53:00.000+08:00

o my married and unmarried friends: This is a very touching story, please read it slowly....

When You Divorce Me, Carry Me Out in Your Arms

"On my wedding day, I carried my wife in my arms. The bridal car stopped>in front of our one-room flat. My buddies insisted that I carry her out ofthe car in my arms. So I carried her into our home. She was then plump and shy. I was a strong and happy bridegroom. This was the scene ten years ago. The following days were as simple as a cup of pure water: we had a kid;I went into business and tried to make more money. When the assets were steadily increasing, the affection between us seemed to ebb. She was a civil servant. Every morning we left home together and got home almost at the same time. Our kid was studying in a boarding school. Our marriage life seemed to be enviably happy. But the calm life was more likely to be affected by unpredictable changes.

Dew came into my life. It was a sunny day. I stood on a spacious balcony. Dew hugged me from behind. My heart once again was immersed in her stream of love. This was the apartment I bought for her. Dew said, you are the kind of man who best draws girls' eyeballs. Her words suddenly reminded me of my wife. When we were just married, my wife said, Men like you, once successful, will be very attractive to girls. Thinking of this, I became somewhat hesitant. I knew I had betrayed my wife. But I couldn't help doing so. I moved Dew's hands aside and said you go to select some furniture, O.K.? I've got something to do in the company. Obviously she was unhappy, because I had promised to do it together with her. At the moment, the idea of divorce became clearer in my mind although it used to be something impossible to me.

However, I found it rather difficult to tell my wife about it. No matter how mildly I mentioned it to her, she would be deeply hurt. Honestly, she was a good wife. Every evening she was busy preparing dinner. I was sitting in front of the TV. The dinner was ready soon. Then we watched TV together. Or, I was lounging before the computer, visualizing Dew's body. This was the means of my entertainment.

One day I said to her in a slightly joking way, suppose we divorce, what will you do? She stared at me for a few seconds without a word. Apparently she believed that divorce was something too far away from her. I couldn't imagine how she would react once she got to know I was serious. When my wife went to my office, Dew had just stepped out. Almost all the staff looked at my wife with a sympathetic eye and tried to hide something while talking to her. She seemed to have got some hint. She gently smiled at my subordinates. But I read some hurt in her eyes.

Once again, Dew said to me, He Ning, divorce her, O.K.? Then we live together. I nodded. I knew I could not hesitate any more. When my wife served the last dish, I held her hand. I've got something to tell you, I said. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the serious topic calmly. She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? I'm serious. I avoided her question. This so-called answer made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man!

That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer, because my heart had gone to Dew. With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. I felt a pain in my heart. The woman who had been living ten years with me would become a stranger one day. But I could not take back what I had said. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer.

Late that night, I came back home after entertaining my clients. I saw her writing something at the table. I fall asleep fast. When I woke up, I found she was still there. I turned over and was asleep again.

She brought up her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but I was supposed to give her one month s time before divorce, and in the month's time we must live as normal a life as possible. Her reason was simple: our son would finish his summer vacation a month later and she didn't want him to see our marriage was broken. She passed me the agreement she drafted, and then asked me, He Ning, do you still remember how I entered our bridal room on the wedding day?

This question suddenly brought back all those wonderful memories to me. I nodded and said, I remember. You carried me in your arms, she continued, so, I have a requirement, that is, you carry me out in your arms on the day when we divorce. From now to the end of this month, you must carry me out from the bedroom to the door every morning. I accepted with a smile. I knew she missed those sweet days and wished to end her marriage romantically. I told Dew about my wife s divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she does, she has to face the result of divorce, she said scornfully. Her words more or less made me feel uncomfortable. My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. We even treated each other as a stranger.

So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly, Let us start from today, don't tell our son. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for a bus, I drove >to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. We were so close that I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this intimate woman carefully for a long time. I found she was not young any more. There were some fine wrinkles on her face.

On the third day, she whispered to me, the outside garden is being demolished. Be careful when you pass there.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I seemed to feel that we were still an intimate couple and I was holding my sweetheart in my arms. The visualization of Dew became vague.

On the fifth and sixth day, she kept reminding me something, such as, where she put the ironed shirts, I should be careful while cooking, etc. I nodded. The sense of intimacy was even stronger. I didn't tell Dew about this. I felt it was easier to carry her. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. I said to her, It seems not difficult to carry you now. She was picking her dresses. I was waiting to carry her out. She tried quite a few but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I smiled. But I suddenly realized that it was because she was thinner that I could carry her more easily, not because I was stronger. I knew she had buried all the bitterness in her heart. Again, I felt a sense of pain. Subconsciously I reached out a hand to touch her head. Our son came in at the moment. Dad, it's time to carry mum out. He said. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had been an essential part of his life. She gestured our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face because I was afraid I would change my mind at the last minute. I held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly, as if we came back to our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad.

On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. She said, actually I hope you will hold me in your arms until we are old. I held her tightly and said, both you and I didn't notice that our life lacked intimacy. I jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my decision. I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door. I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I won't divorce. I'm serious. She looked at me, astonished. The she touched my forehead. You got no fever. She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I can only say sorry to you, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of life, not because we didn't love each other any more. Now I understand that since I carried her into the home, she gave birth to our child, I am supposed to hold her until I am old. So I have to say sorry to you.

Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove to the office. When I passed the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet for my wife which was her favorite. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until we are old.

Very touching, right? If you think it's touching, please forward it to your friends! if you think it's not touching at all, just ignored this.

*Joseph: Guys out there! This is a lesson for you! and to me too... After this mail, I felt I could never do something like divorce to my future wife... Why? Well, guys, why do you marry a girl? Cos she's your sweetheart, your darling, your love ones right? So, if you know a divorce will hurt your sweetheart/darling/love ones, do you want to do so?

Ya, I know, probably the young adults will think "bored marriage" is a big problem as we like stimulating and new things but come on! Marriage is a holy thing and the most happenning thing in your life! And it's God's will to let you to marry another being and live together, 2 in 1! If you scared of bored marriage life, try something NEW together each day! Like this couple, try to refresh the sweet memory which also lead both to focus and feel the sence of intimacy between! Except this, perhaps, jog together every evenning after or before working in the morning? If you like cycling, can try to cycle together? Read the bible and pray together and share together? Learn how to cook together? MSN/ICQ each other during work time? Find out your sweetheart's interest and do it TOGETHER! Dude, use your creative mind! God gave us all one! If you think you don't have, follow the prayer below:

"Lord, I thank you for I'm reading this message. I trusted that it is You who want me to know this. Lord, bless me with a creative mind as I think my life is boring. I thought my marriage life is/will be boring too. So, Lord, please renew our mind and walk with you together throughout our life! Thank You Lord! With Jesus name I prayed. Amen."

Ya, I think I said too much as I'm just 19.. hehe... Well, may GOD BLESS YOU ALL!

M.O.T.H.E.R.

2006-08-15T17:27:00.000+08:00

I saw this song lyric while I'm arranging the church songs into files...

MOTHER

M is for the million things she save to me

O means only that she's getting old

T is for the tears she shed to save me

H is for her heart of purest gold

E is for her eyes with love light shinning

R means right and right she'll always be

Put them all together they spell

MOTHER

a word that means the world to me

*Joseph: To me? Yes, to me.

You'll be in my heart...

2006-08-11T11:49:00.000+08:00

Come, stop your crying, it will be all right
Just take my hand, hold it tight
I will protect you from, all around you
I will be here, don't you cry

For one so small, you seem so strong
My arms will hold you, keep you safe and warm
This bond between us, can't be broken
I will be here, don't you cry

1-'CAUSE you'll be in my heart
YES, you'll be in my heart
From this day on, now and forever more

2-You'll be in my heart
No matter what they say
You'll be here in my heart, always

Why can't they understand the way we feel?
They just don't trust, what they can't explain
I know we're different but, deep inside us
We're not that different at all
(repeat 1..AND)

Don't listen to them, 'cause what do they know?
We need each other, to have, to hold
They'll see in time, I know
When destiny calls you, you must be strong
I may not be with you, but you've got to hold on
They'll see in time, I know, we'll show them together
(repeat 1..BELIEVE ME..I'LL BE THERE)
(repeat 2..YOU'LL BE HERE IN MY HEART..I'LL BE WITH YOU)
Always, I'll be with you I'll be there for you, always, always and always
Just look over your shoulder (3)
I'll be there, always

~~~~~~~~
The first time I hear this song, it reminded me about Tarzan, which also made me have a sudden feel to go and watch the movie... The second time I hear, I wanted to search the lyrics cause I heard "You'll be in my heart" over and over throughout the whole song; after I've found, I thought it is just describing a guy and a girl's love or other way round... The third time, I thought it might can describ the love from our Lord to us!

Read the lyrics carefully.. Imagine it is God who speaking to you now...

I feel so much on this:

"They just don't trust, what they can't explain
I know we're different but, deep inside us
We're not that different at all "

Why can't the world trust the Lord? cause they can't explain and can't imagine how great and how magnificient God can love... me and you? And, we seemed different, but "We're not that different at all " in our heart!

"Don't listen to them, 'cause what do they know? "

What the world know? to sin against Him and brought us far apart form Him! Dont listen to them!

"We need each other, to have, to hold
They'll see in time, I know "

Imagine, God needs you? Yes! Indeed! He needs YOU! He never create anyone "just for fun", or "too boring in the heaven"! Therefore, He needs you!

"When destiny calls you, you must be strong
I may not be with you, but you've got to hold on"

Maybe not "may not be with you"... there's sometime that we can't feel Him around us when we're so desperate and that's obviosly cause our eyes just focusing on the problem, not Him!

"They'll see in time, I know, we'll show them together "

Show the world and tell the world how God love you and chose you and He love the world so much!

"(repeat 1..BELIEVE ME.."

Come, belive Me! said Jesus!

"'LL BE THERE)
(repeat 2..YOU'LL BE HERE IN MY HEART..I'LL BE WITH YOU) "

He promised: I'll be there, just for you!

"just look over your shoulder (3) "

He's comforting you, whenever, wherever you needs Him!

"I'll be there, always "

The Lord, never leave us...

2006-08-09T10:12:00.000+08:00

I've run from God very far,
Like from M'sia to US;
I have no idea why,
But the truth is:
I ran away from God,
Far far away...

Though I come church everyday,
Due to the duty of working;
But my heart,
Is only for working, not for serving...

People thought I was the person I used to be,
Who is a "holy man" in everywhere;
Actually, I'm just have a name that I'm alive,
I'm dead, spiritually dead!

God love me so much! I can tell you this, seriously! Though I've run away from God, He never leave me! I was in Stephen Tong's talk on monday. He spoke:"Till when do you want to sin against God? Until the day He come again? Till the punishment come to you? Repent, NOW!" I was so sad and regret at the time he spoke... The 2nd day, I sin against Him, again! I think, He punished me with a great headache and sore throat(and I'm still in the pain now).

And last night, He reminded me to repent again when I was reading "Our Daily Bread". The scripture of the day gave me a answer of "why I run away from God". I was spiritually dead! "you have a name that you are alive, but you are dead. Rev3:1" The 'dead' refering to spiritually dead. I have a name as "christian", but doesn't live as a christian!

"Be watchful, and strengthen the things which remain, that are ready to die, for I have not found your works perfect before God” (Revelation 3:1-2)." Yes, I admit that I've done nothing perfect before God!

I like this very much... and I repent on what I've sin against Him after reading this:

Their reputation for being alive didn’t match reality. They were spiritually dead. But there was still hope. The Lord told them to wake up and fan the spark of spiritual life still in them. “Hold fast and repent,” He warned (v.3).

Pretending to be what we aren’t is a heavy burden to bear. Our Lord calls us to lay it down, repent, come back to Him, and live. —David C. McCasland

Are you running away from God? Remember this:

"No matter how far you’ve run from God, He’s only a prayer away."

What Happens in Heaven

2006-08-05T11:34:00.000+08:00

This is one of the nicest mails I have seen and is so true:

I dreamt that I went to Heaven and an angel was showing me around. We walked side-by-side inside a large workroom filled with angels. My angel guide stopped in front of the first section and said, "This is the Receiving Section. Here, all petitions to God said in prayer are received." I looked around in this area, and it was terribly busy with so many angels sorting out petitions written on voluminous paper sheets and scraps from people all over the world.Then we moved on down a long corridor until we reached the second section. The angel then said to me, "This is the Packaging and Delivery Section.Here, the graces and blessings the people asked for are processed anddelivered to the living persons who asked for them."I noticed again how busy it was there. There were many angels working?Hard at that station, since so many blessings had been requested and were Being packaged for delivery to Earth.Finally at the farthest end of the long corridor we stopped at the door of a very small station. To my great surprise, only one angel was seated there, idly doing nothing. "This is the Acknowledgment Section," my angel friend quietly admitted to me. He seemed embarrassed "How is it that? There's no work going on here?" I asked. "So sad," the angel sighed. "After people receive the blessings that they asked for, very few send back acknowledgments."How does one acknowledge God's blessings?" I asked. "Simple," the angel answered. "Just say, "Thank you, Lord.""What blessings should they acknowledge?" I asked.
"If you have food in the refrigerator, clothes on your back, a roof overhead and a place to sleep ... you are richer than 75% of this world.
"If you have money in the bank, in your wallet, and spare change in a dish, you are among the top 8% of the world's wealthy."
And if you get this on your own computer, you are part of the 1% in the world who has that opportunity."
Also ..."If you woke up this morning with more health than illness .... you are more blessed than the many who will not even survive this day. "
If you have never experienced the fear in battle, the loneliness of imprisonment, the agony of torture, orthe pangs of starvation ... you are ahead of 700 million people in the world.
"If you can attend a church meeting without the fear of harassment, arrest, torture or death ... you are envied by, and more blessed than, three billion people in the world. "
If your parents are still alive and still married you are very RARE!!!If you can hold your head up and smile, you are not the norm, you are unique to all those in doubt and despair."
Ok, what now? How can I start?If you can read this message, you just received a double blessing in that someone was thinking of you as very special and you are more blessed than over two billion people in the world who cannot read at all. Have a good day, count your blessings,and if you want, pass this along to remind everyone else how blessed we all are.

Attn: Acknowledge Dept.:Thank You Lord! "Thank you Lord, for giving me the ability to share this message and for giving me so many wonderful people to share it with."

Repost from Jolene

If there's one day...

2006-08-03T14:45:00.000+08:00

If there's one day, I'm dead, and you have a chance to talk about me in my funeral ceremony to those audience, what will you talk about?

*Please think it very carefully... do any point that you must tell and not to miss it?

If you did the thinking, thank you. You are not obliged to leave any comment or mail me about it. It just to stimulate your mind.

Another question, sorry if you think i'm really bad to ask but do think about it please!

If there's one day, you dead. Every friend, siblings, parents of yours, have a chance to speak something on the funeral ceremony. What do you think they will say?

Your parents: will they say, you are a good son/daughter?
Your siblings: will they say, you are a great blessing for them to have you to be their siblings?
Your uncle and aunts: will they say, you are respecting elder persons, helpful to them?
Your friends, will they say, you have a willing ear to hear them, a helpful hand to help, a great friend to have?

and if you are a christian,

Your pastor/rev, will he/she say that you are willing to serve the Lord in the church? being loyal to everything you do?
Your elders in the church, will they say that you respect them and help them?
Your friends in church, will they say you have a heart for the Lord and do everything for Him?!

Lastly,

When the Lord come to you, what will He say to you? Do He ask how many friends you have? or ask how many cash money in your hand or bank? or how many things you have in the house? or how many days you serve in the church or how many service you do? or how many bible version you have? no....

He'll ask,

"How many times you spend to help 'a' friend when they're in trouble?"
"How many times you spend your money to help somebody in need?"
"How many times you invite your friend to your house and serve them greatly?"
"How many times you serve Me, with your true heart?"
"How many times you praise Me, when you are alone?"
"How many times you pray to Me, when you are still in your life, trouble-less?"
"How many times you spend time reading my words and understand it well and follow my way, my path?"

~~~~~~~~~************~~~~~~~~~~

Friend, think about it now! What have you done in your life for "xx"years that people will appreciate; or even people does not but God does?

Spend your life carefully, each second, each minute, each hour, each day,each month, each year that God bless! Cos you never know when you leave the world! Repent now since you have time!

If now, something touches you very much, ask you to do something, please do that! DO NOT DELAY! You don't have that much time as you think...

GOD BLESS!

My first time...

2006-07-31T10:50:00.000+08:00

Due to the fact that I know too less, I didn't know that the Messiah concert is actually accompany by an orchestra.... I always wanted to go for any orchestra to have a look how exactly an orchestra look like... Unexpectedly, I saw it and experience how grand, how wonderful an orchestra is, especially playing a great piece like Messiah! Praise the Lord for that opporcunity! I enjoyed that evening very much!

I enjoyed that evening very much! I met many ppl there too! My beloved Isaiah Schoolmate- Esther, is one of them! I was so excited when I saw her waiting somebody in the lobby... We actually sitted together and enjoyed the concert together! We were still very very close though we haven't meet each other for 3 months! I met a few STM students, few friends in seremban... and few pastors that I know.

I was about to take a few snap... but when I was there, the performance is so great untill I'm not dare to take even one snap! Even if I want, photographing or any video record is actually prohibited...

For those who haven't try orchestra, go to a "live orchestra cocert"! It is certainly not the same as what the CDs play!

Switching identity...

2006-07-27T17:51:00.000+08:00

Have you ever try to switch identity with your friend? I've tried.... How?! Easy! By msn. hahaha... But I've gain something though we're just crazily playing with our friends.

We have to know each other very well to make others not to realise we switched identity. By using msn, i have to talk in "B"'s way, and the emotion that B usually use. And have to act like B. Then only people won't recognise there is a switch identity going on...

This switching identity probably can archieve a goal...: to test how you know your friend. Can you recognise them if they switched identity in msn/any other online chatting service(ie ICQ, IM...) by the way they use the emotions and words? Me and B was success! The 3rd party don't know we switched identity too and only until we tell. So I know B well enough! But of course continue to know more!

Though it's quite "lame", but somehow i think it can be a test to test how many we know each other... quite fun too!!

Experience God in hard times!

2006-07-27T09:36:00.000+08:00

I heard the title "Experience God in hard times!" too many times. And somehow I just advicing people to think of that when they are in hardtimes but not for myself...

Yesterday, actually the day before, I had some trouble in my mind. I'm having test that approved by God. I'm weak. I don't know how to against it. I pray and I prayed but it com and coming again and again. i slept so late these two days... can't work properly... even can't pray porperly...

Yesterday night, can't sleep again... was writing diary... A sudden touch from God, I wrote a song. Though i think the melody isn't really good but the lyrics are suit to my heart:

V：困难重重包围着我我不知如何解决
试探重重围绕着我我不知如何面对

Pre-C：
有时我彷徨无助
有时我感孤单寂寞

C：
主啊助我
主啊帮我
我软弱祢刚强
我知靠主力量必胜过

主啊助我
主啊帮我
我软弱祢刚强
靠主力量我必胜过
我必胜过

The song is saying I'm in trouble and tests, I have no idea how to face those.
There's time when I feel alone!

Lord, Help me! I'm weak but you are strong. I know by Your strenth and power, I will gain victory!

Thank you Lord! Let me experience You! You won't leave us alone in any circumstances!

The pirates of the Carribean 2...

2006-07-26T09:26:00.000+08:00

I got to watch that movie last night with my family! Personally thinking, it's ok! In the sence of making movie, it's brilliant! It's because the action part very interesting, plus the advance tools of computer made the animation part very real. But, again, it doesn't make feel....very good...

However, the movie showed some friendship. Like, the "Captain Jake Sparrow" with Elizabeth and William Turner. Though they are selfish sometimes for own benefits but at the end, they realise sould help each other. Experience the happiness and sadness and dangerous together. But besides that, it shows human's incredibly selfishness! Like I said, the friends can betray each other(though they realise later but they do selfish.) 1st of course, Captain Jack Sparrow, made trap and traps to make himself free from Davy Jones. 2nd, the coloner in the england. He forced people to get what he wants. He's absolutely abusing his authority! and many more...

Except those, I found nothing more but a action movie. I like graphics though.. haha...

Perhaps we should remind ourselve not to be as selfish as pirates, only think of "golds, jewery..." What is the "golds and jeweries" in your life? That you're willing to spend all your years to chase behind it? Have you got the "map" for that? As a christian, I think my "golds and jeweries"= the eternal life that God promised for "those who believe his son, Jesus Christ" and also the holy life that we have to live according to Paul's and John Wesley's teaching! The "map"? God's word!-Bible!

Have you got what is your "golds and jeweries" is? Like Captain Jack, the compass did not work( the compass is a special compass, it only direct the way to the things you want in the world the most!). He doesn't know what he wants the most.

Do you know what you want the most? If don't, pray now! Or find any christian friend, pastor to share, find out what is the "treasure" of the world! Or, you can get a "map" for yourself-the Bible! Or you can mail me...if you like... josetanks@gmail.com or just leave comment here~!

God bless!

Woods between Worlds...

2006-07-25T09:18:00.000+08:00

My little brother finished "The Chronicles of Narnia" in not even a month! I brought it to him while I'm in Hong Kong. It's the full version and he used only weeks to finish the 7books! And he'll always share with me after he finishes one book or a chapter. I have the satisfaction of buying this book... After hearing his sharing, I always feel like to read the book too...but I just let him finish 1st...but i din respect he'll finish that so fast!

I start the 1st book yesterday and till the 3rd chapter-Woods between Worlds. It's describing a little girl and a little boy, fall into the trap of the "false magician" by taking the yellow and the green rings. They reached a forest which seemed like an island surrounding by different pools. Later they discovered that different pools can reach different world. So they marked the pool that they came from and wear the green ring to start their discovery...

I feel that the book is "Woods between worlds" to me and my brother. We are somehow can be described as two different worlds' person. By using the "rings", we linked together and meet in the same land-the woods. Together, hand in hand, we jump into different pool and discover new world in Narnia...

The net can also be described as woods between worlds. With the "yellow rings" and the "green rings on your mouse", you can jump into different pools as you like. There's a part of the book said that they children tried to jump back the world they came from and switch the rings back so that they can back to the woods w'out completely reach their own world. So, when you search the net, by "accidently click" you went some place that you suppost not to reach, you can faster swith the ring back and back your own world. Similarly, you can mark your own world. Like, if you like to read in my blogspot, you can mark it in the favourite or bookmark it.... hahahaha...

Super daddy...

2006-07-21T10:23:00.000+08:00

"You are my super daddy...
.....................................
But i'm only human
.............................."
(Original song-"Super women"-Gary ChaoGe)

This is a song from Gary... I ciplak it and change the lyrics abit... Why? Come and read the story!

Yesterday, the church phone can't function at all... As a pastor, my daddy go and check and move this move that and stil can't function till end of the day.. This morning, my dad said:"it can't be like this! Must be something wrong...(minutes later) Ah! the wire broke! Son, come and replace it and screw it...(he describe how it should be...) " I asked why don't he fix it himself (cos I'm little bit blur of what he described) and he said he's rushing to other place...

So I'm alone in the office and fix the thingy. I prayed that God will really fix this... and it fixed!!! YAY!!! And now I can connect the net already!!! hahaha... The computer then played "super women"... I had a great feel... My dad is super daddy! He knows everything!

Why am I saying that? When:
1. my car broke down, he can fix (of course later must send to mechanic shop to have a check)
2. the pipe in house got problem, he can always be a plumber to fix that.
3. the light/electrical thingy got problem, he fixed it.
4. no more space to put my or his books, he build a book rak from pieces of woods...
5. relationship of the people with God broke, he "fixed" the people so that they come back to God!

Beside he is pro in fixing people and thins, he's a loving father! ...

Can't describe by words.... you just have to meet him and play around with him, then you know what i'm talking about...

Lord, thank You for this "Super Daddy"! You being a Super Almighty Dad too!

Incredible...

2006-07-19T09:10:00.000+08:00

Every readers of my blog, 1 question to ask... : Do you feel your life incredible? Don't you? I feel that! I'm feeling that!

I falshed back... the first day I come to this world; the first time I crawl down from my baby bed; the first time I know how to walk with unbalance sensation, with parents' encouragement; the first day in Tadika; the very first time I meet my friend in church:Vanessa, Rason, Jolene(and are friends till now!); the first day in primary school-standard 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6; the first step in secondary school-form 1, 2, 3, 4, 5; the first time become the president of youth fellowship(stress); the first time go into Isaiah school(enjoyable); the first step in Methodist college; the first time organise tressure hunt together with my college dearest friends(!); the first day work in the church; the fist time receive my own paid... and now, I'm 19!

Friend, how many "first time" in your life? Perhaps you already 20s, 30s or even older... never mind! You would had even more "first time" than me!

What am I trying to point out?

Loook again the title of this post:"incredible"! Don't you think your life is incredible? Sooooooo many first time in your life!!! I haven't ask you plus all the "last time"! The "first time", showed God let us had a brand new experience; the "last time", showed how many opporcunity God had gave us!

Do we appreciate the every brand new experience? Do we appreciate the opporcunities that God gave us again and again? { When is the "first time" you pray, and repentance to our God? and when is the "last time" you do that? Do you know how many opporcunity to do that? }

Fill everything you can think of to replace the underlined word. And you'll find how incredible, how great, how........ is our Lord to give us this great life!!!!!!!!!!

Start from today, be thankful even the worst thing happen; be humble even the glorious thing happen!
God bless!

Tooooooooo freeeeeeee

2006-07-15T14:59:00.000+08:00

After two busy days before weekend, I'm really really really really free! I mean, boring...Had nothing to do because everything for sunday service's preparation...done!!! By today morning.. now is in the afternoon, bored...

But again, I felt that I had been make too much wants... When I busy, I prayed that God will let me free a bit; when I'm too free, I tell God, please let me do something... haha... how "mao dun-paradox" is that...

Ah, I know! Just arrange the computer folder! Thank God for this...

The power of His love...

2006-07-13T09:45:00.000+08:00

I was in prayer meeting yesterday. I was very frustrated and angry of a brother who break the promise always. I think he tried to do that again yesterday... So i was very very angry. I didn't talk to him at all and I can't concerntrate on praying and worshiping God...

'it' came out... who? Satan that hide in him for very long... at least a year... 'It' screamed and said that this is the second him, only one pastor know him... after singing a song, we all pray for him. We prayed, and prayed for him. 'It' shouted and screamed and shouted and screamed and cried... worrires are on his face...

I prayed in my heart, so that Lord will forgive my sins and only then I started pray for him. After minutes, bible flows out in my mind. I flipped the bible and Psalm 107:1-13:

"
107:1
O give thanks unto the LORD, for he is good: for his mercy endureth for ever.

107:2
Let the redeemed of the LORD say so, whom he hath redeemed from the hand of the enemy;

107:3
And gathered them out of the lands, from the east, and from the west, from the north, and from the south.

107:4
They wandered in the wilderness in a solitary way; they found no city to dwell in.

107:5
Hungry and thirsty, their soul fainted in them.

107:6
Then they cried unto the LORD in their trouble, and he delivered them out of their distresses.

107:7
And he led them forth by the right way, that they might go to a city of habitation.

107:8
Oh that men would praise the LORD for his goodness, and for his wonderful works to the children of men!

107:9
For he satisfieth the longing soul, and filleth the hungry soul with goodness.

107:10
Such as sit in darkness and in the shadow of death, being bound in affliction and iron;

107:11
Because they rebelled against the words of God, and contemned the counsel of the most High:

107:12
Therefore he brought down their heart with labour; they fell down, and there was none to help.

107:13
Then they cried unto the LORD in their trouble, and he saved them out of their distresses."

I felt this scripture is truly speak to us! I repeated the last verse again and again... "they cried unto the LORD in their trouble, and he saved them out of their distresses"... Lord, you saved him out of their distresses! In the name if Jesus, Lord, you saved him out of their distresses!

Then, my mind flashed another incident. While I was in Isaiah school last yr, a pastor spoke prophesy upon me that I will play music that play in the heaven for worshiping God in the heaven. So, I went to the piano and start playing hymns... Other members continuesly pray for him, some sing the song with me...

Praise the Lord! After praying and worshiping God, James, that guy, seems better and start praising the Lord with us! Hallelujah!

The power of His love, will never leave us alone! Though we may sin against Him, but because His great love, He gave His only Son, everything was done, so You would come!

Thank You Lord for wonderful days! Bless each one of us that reading this, let them know You in their minds, esperiece You in their hearts!

Remember, God never leave us!!! Because HE IS ALIVE!!!!

God's hand...

2006-07-12T13:14:00.000+08:00

I was working in the church... Finding some pictures to design the bulletin cover of sunday service... I used up whole brain the think what should I search... And, "God's hand" pop-up into my head.

I went to google search, search "God's hand"... one hand came out...

larger and larger... from my eye, the picture became larger and larger, went into my head, to my brain...slowly to my heart... it touches me many much... my tears came out...

Suddenly I feel that, along my life journey, without God's hand, obviously, after I fall and no one would help me, and I'll always stay the same place...never think of standing up again... But with God's word to me, "stand up, stand up! my son! My beloved son! I'm with you!" God's strength, push me, God's hand, come to me, He said, "come to me, and I will give you rest"... stand up again...

Thank you Lord for such a lovely, touching moment. I will praise for all of my life... I promised, in the name of Jesus Christ. Amen!

car break down...again...

2006-07-11T16:29:00.000+08:00

Today I went to fetch my sister and when I am on my way to my college to sell my books to juniors, guess what, my car broke down again...in the same situation as last time... The car just cannot start... I called my dad...

My dad came after half an hour... he youch here and there which I don't know what he's trying to do... I assume he's repairing the car... after touching here and there, he called a few mechanic friend and he touch another thingy and asked me to start the car... after three times we tried, I prayed, "Lord, please fill this car with blessings. Don't let daddy too tired fixing the car..." I start again and dad shouted, "should be ok already" but it doesn't seem to me cos the engine not started yet... wondering why dad shouted that.

He put back whatever that he pulled out and start the car himself... in few seconds, I heard "vrooooommmmm, vroooommmm, vrooommmmmmmmmmmmmmm!!!!!!" PRAISE the LORD!!!! Hallelujah! God provides dad with wisdom and blessings upon me, dad, and the car...

I learned, pray! Whatever happen!

First paid...

2006-07-10T12:33:00.000+08:00

For 19 years I live on the earth... My first occupation with paid in money form, is serve the Lord as a staff officer in my church! Praise the Lord! Though I knew I will get the paid someday but not sure when... Guess what? I've got mine yesterday after the service! i was surprised and excited! It's in cash!! not cheque!!! So, my wallet, the first time, very thick!

I committed myself, to offer my Lord 10/1 as to do my christian duty and to show my obediant to God's word. To post these on my blog, not to show my pride but to encourage every christian to offer 10/1 to OUR Lord! Do you know that, Lord said the only thing you can test God, is "blessings after you offer 10/1"! Go and check with your pastor if you think I'm wrong! But of course, don't make the reason of 10/1 mainly cos of the blessing... must on right motive!

The first paid can also describe as the reason why I didn't post anything on my blog recently... cos I'm busying working!

ps: I had piano lesson jz now, the piano teacher encourage me to at least spend 5hourd a day to practise... I agree that I won't lose anything if I practise more... but I need motivation to keep on practise for 5 hours a day!! Pray for me, every eyes of this blog! Thanks and God bless!

New journey...

2006-07-02T22:52:00.000+08:00

I'm stepping in to a new journey... I start work! It was tired but happy. Not because of the salary but learned new things! I learned how the pressure is, during working.. How forgetful I am...

Praise the Lord!

ps: Btw, I jz back from "clm"'s recital... it was great!! And, I've great honoured to play some short hymns during "bonus entertainment" while ppl is eating... hahaha... the piano is great! I like it very much...

In love..?

2006-07-02T21:33:00.000+08:00

Last saturday, my old secondary school had 50 anniversary... I met a classmate of mine... The first greeting not "how r u?" but, "got 'gf' already arh?" I said not yet... And we chatted alot.

When I'm on the way home, I was thinking, if I never pray and promised to God, I think I've start courtships... Why? What did I prayed? Ok, hear a story of mine...

I've attend a short bible course for four months last year-Isaiah school. I heard alot pastors shared their love story(under our request ;p)... Their story touched and sweet and all have a similar factor: They all started their courtship only on or after 21yrs old! I still remember on 31st of march, I prayed to God... I thought of many problems... one of those is: when should I start to search for a gf? When I thought of this, the pastors similar factor came into my mind...

I prayed, Lord, I leave this to You, tell me when "she" is the one and I commit myself only start searching or start a relationship on/after 21yrs old...

So, I didn't go and find any? I admit that I does admire a girl but I always remind myself that she is a good friend/best friend. Is it possible to have pure friendship between a girl and a guy? I think, there is.

God have different plan for each one of us. I think 21yrs old start would be suit to me cos I think I would be more matured that time... and i may treat own emotion better...!

21yrs old, 2yrs to go... not that long... haha...

God bless everyone.

恋爱中...

2006-06-19T14:50:00.000+08:00

今早看到一本辅导籍的书-"易动的心". 里面谈到友情的建立与恋爱的真实涵义.

我看到一个很有帮助的资料,所以把它搬上blog来..

恋爱中的七个阶段

观察期 -> 酝酿期 -> 表白期 -> 浪漫期 -> 冲突期 -> 挣扎期 -> 分手
-> 理解期 -> 再委身 -> 结婚

*非常重要的一点是, 恋爱的最终目的是结婚! 所以, 要开始每段恋情都要好好做决定!
付出也是双方的付出!

愿上帝祝福!

Father's day...

2006-06-18T22:10:00.000+08:00

This morning, evcept that i'm preparing for everything needed for performance, I woke up earlier than usual is because of helping dad in church... but he seems that he had done everything.... haih... There's performances by fathers and sons/daughters today. Though it took more than an hour, took the time for pastor's preeching... but it touches ppl's heart!

Later in the afternoon, I went to New Life church for performance with "clm"(cute little monster). We had quite a long rehearsal before we're going to there. We had a great time during worship and performing. One thing is not good enough: the piano out of tune! But, it's not too serious la...

I had great fun today! Shared our time, music talents, skills with each! hehe... Looking forward for next performance...

Praise the Lord!

Truth is truth, false is false...

2006-06-15T18:11:00.001+08:00

http://www.syfc.org.sg/events/dvc/cinema.html

Click the link above! This short show is really meaningful. Not only the fact that it against the "da vinci code" thingy, it also bring out an important idea:

"Truth is truth, false is false;
Believe in fase and you'll be gone!"

This statement very important especially to the youths. Youths nowadays didn't know how to recognise what is truth and what is false... And, sometimes, they does know that is truth but they just ignore it! Just like the round fellow said: "Ai ya, doesn't matter la!" Why doesn't matter? Because somebody famous said that? Because everybody is doing that? They some how just following what the trend is. And this is why they've been being blind to truth!

As a response of believing false, "got consequences one"! However, usually people didn't think or just ignore the consequence that might happen!

Therefore, as christian nowadays, we have bible to refer and always have pastors around us. Most importantly, our Lord is always there for us. When your non-christian friends have doubts about truth or false, read the bible and send them a scripture. If you don't know the answer, ask your other christian friends or pastors! Or, you come to God to give you wisdon to find out the answer.

We must love our friends especially the non-c.! Share the gospel and share the love to them, people around you! That is because:

"Jesus is God
Born as man
Die for us and rose again!" HEY!!!!!

Let us keep it up together in the light of God!

Hokkien ooi...

2006-06-15T13:56:00.000+08:00

This afternoon I cheered up by a friend of mine who "talk" hokkien in her blog. It is terribly funny. Exactly shown she is Malaysian-Hokkien plus some malay plus some english somemore... Just "great"... haha..

Wa di jit dao, pun o wa eh pengyiu-aihui, gong hokkien ooi di wa eh blog. Hope semua lang eh sai kua and qiu and splutter some zui on his/her computer... hahaha... wa ah sui? Wa o from wa eh pengyiu eh! So, wa xi bu ani sui eh. Actually, depends also... kua xi ha mi lang, ha mi ming gia lo... Gia lit a ho, bo ha mi ming gia bo happy eh! AH! I ce diu wa eh diary liao! I thought wa eh diary ho wa eh baba/mama kua liao but fortunately, no! Fuh....

Ho la, wa ai makan and lian xi wa eh gua liao. Sunday ga wa eh pengyiu u performance. Have to practise something... hehe... Hope you all understand. If not, ask your friend who is a hokkien. Don't have any? Ask me lo... ahhaha..

*Aihui, sorry for o lu eh way to xia wa eh blog. hehe... Bo copyrighted one, right? hahaha...

A bad begining of the day..

2006-06-14T12:25:00.000+08:00

I woke up by my dad's call from the church... He spoke to me about things happen in sunday... He want to archieve a "win win" situation, therefore he asked me about details...

I doesn't like to talk about that again but since my dad want to archieve that which is a good thing, I have to repeat the whole story again... Surprisingly, he replied me, the things that I speak and what the other spoke is different...This really made me headache. I told him that I've told him everything I knows! Others, I don't know...

This misunderstanding happen only because lack of conversation and misunderstood to each other. It's not either one's fault. From this incident, I realised that conversation and comprehention are very important in building up relationship, any relationship! "Face to face " conversation played an important role too!

Anyway, though I've learn something from this but I've paid up my mood, my feeling, my concertration to God... I can't do anuything.. properly! Usually, to make a new post, I spent about 10minutes to finish it but this short post took up to 20 minutes!!

Pray for me, my friends! I need strength and wisdom from God!

A touch from Holy Spirit...

2006-06-13T14:48:00.000+08:00

This afternoon I was on my way to my sister's school to fetch her home. I saw a helmet on the center of the opposite road. At that time, a driver nearly loss control because he realised the helmet slow and by God's grace he safe by didn't knock off the helmet... I continued my way. A small voice tell me to take the helmet away from the road. After thinking and thinking, I decided to make a big round back to the road and find a place to park my car and take the helmet off.

I continue my way to my sister's school. I was thinking: this is the smallest thing but it's also the only thing I can help! There's so many time that I saw cars stopped beside the road putting on his double signal and I was kind of ignore it. That's because I think there's nothing much i can help even I stop myself to go and check out the situation. I didn't have any medical emergency knowledge either, I can't help if there's accident. So, I think I made a good decision today of taking the helmet off.

I tell this story not to "show-off" myself. The main reason is to tell everybody: the community nowadays is very cold. Do something that can show some "warmnest"! Especially to the drivers! If you can fix flat tire, you saw a car can't fix, just drop by and use few minutes to help them out! You never know if the person you help will also help you in another way! But of course, that's not the main reason why you help... Whatever you can do, even it's a small thing to you, it'll benefit much more than you imagine to others!

To christian, you are obliged to help your neighbours! When you are on the road, the drivers that drive through the same way or the drivers beside you, are your neighbours! Jesus asked us to love our neighbours. You are showing love to your neighbours by helping them!

Let us love our neighbours! start today! Don't ever said you have another time. You never know when is the "last time"!

Daniel Powter - You Had a Bad Day...

2006-06-12T07:38:00.000+08:00

"cos you had a bad day,
taking one down,
sing a sad song and just turn it around...
You had a bad day,
You had a bad day."

I think this song popular enough let you know how it sounded.. It always in American Idol elimination section... This song being quite sarcastic... why? Cos you had a bad day, should be sounded sad, right? But the 1st time I heard on tv, I love the melody so much.. To me, it can't be consider as a "sad song" from the melody part...

The chorus lyric sings my yesterday. I had a bad day yesterday. I had some misunderstanding between church member and it made me headache. Taken one down. Sang few sad songs too... I scolded few people which I shouldn't... The day show some colors when come to evening.

I went for rehearsal for father's day event in Khai Ern house. I chilled and had a great time there! We shared music and I had a free violin performance there which is GREAT!!hehe.. I enjoy the time shared with her family too!

Later I went to kepong chinese methodist church with a open-heart. I had my HongKong trip rehearsal there... Enjoyed too! After supper with friends, I reached my home at 11 something. Towards the end of the day, something brought me from heaven to hell! My mom scolded me that I shouldn't scold the children... and many things else... I felt really bad... The only song playing in my mind is: Daniel Powter - You Had a Bad Day...

Treasure hunt? Hunting treasure?

2006-06-10T21:27:00.000+08:00

Today our fellowship had a treasure hunt. I'm in-charge of it! They have to solve the clues that set according to the shop's name, the things sold, discount...

I had a thought in mind after one group told me that they want to give up of searching clues: This treasure hunt is like a life. There's fast and slow in our life(they walked and ride on monorail-fast and slow); there's ups and downs (they ran up and down to solve the clues); and, you have to find the right way to do things!(they must choose the right way for the answers.) In our life, we have to do alot of decisions! And there is time when we do the wrong decision, and this made us have to use longer time for archieve purposes. Just like the clues that they have to solve, it's symbolising the purposes we have in life. Some of them feel like giving up, just like some people giving up their lifes! Some of them used all the time and it just not enough to solve all the clues; just like some people, before archieving the things that they planned in mind, the time had come to them-die.

This treasure hunt actually give me this kind of thoughts! Praise the Lord! When we had our sharing after the treasure hunt, they shared:
-"I enjoy the process of the treasure hunt. There's also time when made me frustrated because I can't found what I want."
-"I enjoyed it! We archieve the purpose, solve the clues in a group-showed the unity!"
-"My group including one new comers who is only 8. But he didn't made me feel bad but made the whole condition better! The purity of the child made me had a mind that I would like to have more kids and let them come to know our Lord, Jesus Christ!"
Make this comments into life! It just symbolising how life goes! Some enjoy the process; some enjoy the unity among group members...

Later, after sharing among the members, pastor went to the stage and shared some of his thoughts: He said that the treasure hunt can be better if the question set according to "How a christian look on what's happening in TimeSquare?". Did you see the temptation? Dis you see sins committed by others? Did you see the unsaved souls walking in the mall and doing nothing? Did you have a heart of God, look with eyes of God?

Wow, I think this will be far more good than what we've done. However, there's 2nd opporcunity ig God provides!

I learn alot from this treasure hunt. More than what I imagined! Praise the Lord! I had satisfaction when the members said they've enjoyed the whole process! Thank you Lord!

The last episod of "edexcel exam"!

2006-06-09T21:53:00.000+08:00

Today I've done my last paper-economics! Yay! Hoo-ray!! The first paper of econs, ok. very well! The second paper, quite bad... not so good.. The third paper... haih... sad... the worst paper..

Anyway, I've done my best for that! I need to rearrange my life now... I don't know when to continue my piano lesson, when to start work and what work to do... All I know and all I have to do is pray! The only thing I can think of... Friends, pray for me, thank you!

One man band

2006-06-08T21:35:00.000+08:00

This is a pixar featured short film. It is great, funny, and gave me some reminders!

This fellow at the left, named Bass. With himself, he can play the brass instruments-Trumpets, tuba, and some drums; while another dude at the right, named Treble, play the strings instruments and a piano on his side. The music played was really amazing(though it's only an animated cartoon..)! But the reason why they played so hard, is only because to attract and impressed the little girl to offer them a coin.

Well, guess what, the little girl played amazing music with violin! And, bu her touch on the bow and the body of violin, she rewarded a beg of coins. That's the end of the story. (It's not really described clear enough.. for "clearest" view, go to the cinema and watch "cars". They'll present this short film before "cars" start! Don't be late!)

What I've learn from this little short film? That's: For solo, a man, though with amazing skills on different instruments is good; but to make people impressed, focus on one, and play well! That, only impressing people! When there's men with different skills on different instruments, combined and play in a band, not "one man show", that's the impressing ones and the most amazing ones!!!!

For all musician, focus well in one instrument and find yourself a best partner to perform the best to the world! And most importantly, to glorify God's name! Hallelujah!

*to one of my friend: the little girl with great violin skills!
reminded me of one friend of mine! Who? You'll know if you are the one who reading this... hehe... cute little monster.

A great great day!

2006-06-06T22:40:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was a great great day! I went to pay a visit to my friend's house! She is Khai Ern, who came back for holiday from her study in US! She's brilliant, right? You never know, her violin skill..."mo dak deng"!!!

She shared her favorite part of the book"Narnia" to me, and i think it really great too! Later, after lunch, I had a violin lesson from her which only focusing on my pose of playing(cos my pose all wrong, obviously...haih... sad...). It was really touch! I finally found that she's right when she said in her mail that learning violin not an easy thing!!!

Then, I went back to my position and she back hers-I played piano, guitar, er-hu and she played violin. She learned guitar and her continuing er-hu lesson from last time(which is last yr), and she's still having correct pose! Clever la! We played some songs and attracted her dad from his bed to the piano's side. He wanted to sing "He" but he needs the lyrics and I promised to send him the lyrics later after homed. Later, he sang some great songs with awesome piano accompanimon by Khai ern! Nice! They are great!!!

We also planned a performance on 18th which is on father's day in the church near to her house. Ah, I just waiting for the day to come! About 5 something, she and her dad have a running to the park and reached some where.. while I accompanying her mom and Bungee walking around. We shared our thoughts of everything that we think of... A great time too!

That was just a great day!!!! I enjoyed the day very much. But, one thing I must say: Happy hours, past fast! Agree? hehe..

Friend, I appreciate what we had and thank God for giving me this friend-you, khai ern! and other friends as welll!!

ps: By the way, Khai Ern is doing a violin recital on 2nd os July! Anyone who is interested, pls leave your comment here and I'll send you details.

Venue:No Black Tie
17 Jln. Mesui
off Jln Nagasari
50200 KL
Time: Start on 6pm, Sunday,2nd of July.
Ticket: RM 40 only! (Japanese dinner served-RM100)

Tell me now! And I'll send you her very own poster! Well-designed!

God bless!

The new defination of Love!

2006-05-12T21:46:00.000+08:00

One of my friend wrote in his msn personal message:

The new defination of LOVE:
L-Listen
O-Overlook
V-Voice
E-Effort

L-Listen
Love is to be unconditioned, unprejudiced. Hear and understand each other.
O-Overlook
Love is to treat each other with kindhearted, forgive others fault, and find out his/her excellence.
V-Voice
Love is to express appreciation, sincered encouragement.
E-Effort
Love is to sacrifice with effort. Not only one sacrifeice and one enjoy; but both keep an effort to love and care each other!

Do you have "LOVE"? Think about it and learn it together!

*Mother's day is at the corner... Had we loved our mom? For what she spent on us since we are kids... even for the unfortunated ones, your mom had keep effort to born you to this world... Learn to love! That is hard but worth! There is time where we angry of peoples around us especially to our relatives. Thus, try to love them the way they are, because not only they are your relatives but you are one of their relative also!

LOVE! God is love!

I had great honoured!!

2006-05-11T22:24:00.000+08:00

That day, 9th of may- I read the Bible as usual... I was always following the booklet scheduled 4 chapters a day. I was suppostingly reading the 1 Chronicles 21-24. I always felt that the Chronicles is pretty boring to read... However, after I've finished the 24th, with a sudden desire, I feel like reading the next chapter... So had I continued...

The NIV version, titled chapter 25 as "The singers". That chapter was talking about the worshippers that assigned to serve the Lord in the church which Solomon King had built. Guess who I've found in the list? The 3rd "Joseph" mentioned in the Bible (as what I know).

[2 From the sons of Asaph: Zaccur, Joseph, Nathaniah and Asarelah. The sons of Asaph were under the supervision of Asaph, who "prephesied"(in the chinese version, also refering to singing.) under the King's supervision.]

[7 Along with their relatives-all of them trained and skilled in music for the Lord-they numbered 288.]

[8 The first lot, which was for Asaph, fell to joseph, his sons and relatives...]

After I read the whole chapter, i refered it back again and mark down those verses. I've heard and felt that I've been "trained and skilled in MUSIC for THE LORD!!!" I felt what David had said in Psalm, 'what is men that you are mindful of him, the son of man that you care for him?' He cares, He chose even before I've been born to this world for serving him in MUSIC!

Now, I'm assured by Lord Himself for the third time-to continue and furthur study in music.

"Praise the Lord!
I'm now, knowing the Lord, You love me!
You've chose me to be one of the men who performed this service to You!
Thank You Lord! Help me to humble myself,
and learn what You want me to learn!"

Thank you , Lord!

*In that night, God gave me a song. I sang it again and again softly alone in my room with God, it is sooooo sweet. I recorded it down to prevent my forgetful attitude... The lyrics as below:

我要献上 I will Offer My Life

.............D......... A......... Bm
我要献上我一生我一切 I will offer my life all of mine
................G..... A
成为你手中器皿 To become the vessels in Your hands
.............D......... A......... Bm
我要献上我一生我一切 I will offer my life all of mine
................G.... Gm
成为你手中器皿 To become the vessels in Your hands
...........Bm.. A/D .........G...... A7
求祢悦纳............ 求祢悦纳 Please accept me Please accept me

.........G....................... A
虽然我有软弱的时候 Although there's time when I'm weak
.........G....................... A
虽然我有懒惰的时候 Though there's time when I'm lazy
.........>......D
求你指教我 Please teach me
.........A
带领我 Guide me
.........G.................. Gm
使我成为你手中器皿 To become the vessels in Your hands

*You're welcome to comment on my english version-my english usage is bad, huh? So, please come and comment on it! Thank you!

Who Am I??!!!

2006-05-10T22:23:00.000+08:00

You: Who are you?
Me: I'm Joseph Tan.
You: Not asking your name! Who are you?
Me: I'm a guy, 19 this year, a christian, username:josetanks...
You: Hmmm... i wonder what is "jose-tanks"...
Me: "Jose"=Joseph, "Tan=my sirname", "KS=shortform of my last name"..
You: Ooh! I see! But, again, you aren't answer my question! Who are you?
Me: I'm a musician in church..
You: Not asking what you serve as... Who are you?
Me: A pastor's son..
You: Not asking what your dad work as... Who are you?
Me: Ummm... I don't know what to say, dude! What you wanted to know?!!!!!
You: Well, if one day, all the things that you mentioned just now, GONE! Who are you then?
Me: A very good question! I would say: I'm a son of the Lord! That's all and that is all I have to know- God loves me and you!

Who are you? Have you found the answer? I think I've got it!

God bless!