Thursday, September 28, 2006

Chapter 3: The greatest happiness~!

"Kenny, I missed you this years... though I have so many friends here and there's a guy treat me very well.. But I don't have the same feeling to him... I'm still missing you very much..."

Claudine keep saying this in the past five years...

~~~God really come at the best time..~~~

Kenny met a few girls too... but they just doesn't treat him as Claudine does..though he does grew in the light of God but he feels that he has no gift to be single for God and he desire to build a family...

~~One day, particularly at 30th of September,~~

Kenny's owner carelessly brang Kenny out to a wedding ceremony. Kenny's owner is the pianist of the wedding ceremony. After the ceremony, Kenny's owner go and meet Claudine's owner... Her owner brang her too..

Kenny: CLAUDINE! Is that you?
Claudine: er... KENNY!!! I missed you very much!!!
Kenny: Me too! Claudine, I must tell you this!
Claudine: wat....
Kenny: I love you! Will you marry me?
Claudine: (surprisingly)...
Kenny: I know it's kind of...rush and no time to let you think and...
Claudine: YES!
Kenny: Hah? I can't hear you!
Claudine: YES!!!!!

Kenny's owner gave Kenny to Claudine's owner... and both of them live happily ever after...

*Specially writing for _ _ _ e _ a.

Chapter 2: After she leaves...

"Claudine, how are you today? Are you happy with the new owner? I think you are and I really hope so... As for me, same as I before meeting you...Stay in the drawer everyday... I miss you very much..."

Kenny keep talking to himself everyday. He hurt. Hurt badly...

"Claudine, though I'm apart from you, but you are always my dearest darling you know? Do you remember the jokes that I told you? and you promised me to be my 'wife'? Actually, I was so worry that I might hurt you again...I don't really feel that I can keep the promises 'as your husband'... and I always feel that we'll apart someday and it'll probably good for you cos I think 'be with me, you'll suffer cos I'm the one who cut on you, campur tangan in your life..' you'll get hurt and I don't wanna hurt you...cos I love you..."

He miss her everyday, every moment...keeps refresh the sweetest moment they spent together and he smile...

"Though I'm hurt, I won't let you get hurt! I rather myself to get suffer all this days than let us suffer together... You are always in my deepest heart and my mind!"

"I hope we've made the right decision to be apart... we're still young...if God want us to be couple later, we'll be; if God doesn't want us t be, we'll only suffer even if we keep be together... Claudine, do you ever regret that you made that promise? Sometimes, I regret...but I'll try my best to keep those promises that I made..."

He prayed everytime after missing her...

"Lord, if she's the one for me, keep her for me untill the time comes..but at the meantime, draw my concentration on you! Let me put down all the desires to hold her hands and lift up my hands to you and hold yours! we might wrong when we made most of the decisions but I'm sure that I never believe the wrong God! You'll always prepare me the best things in the best time! Thank You Lord, in Jesus name I pray. Amen."

Everyday, he talk to himself and pray and talk to himself...never bored of missing somebody...sometimes he even feel glad that they are apart...and he actually grew and learn more about the Lord! He realised that in order to gain good relationships on the earth, you must build a good relationship to God!

"Lord, bless Claudine so that she'll also grow, in the light of You! In Jesus name I pray again. Amen!"

Tuesday, September 26, 2006

The story of a white clay and a key...

Chapter 1: Meeting and knowing...

As you can see, this is what I am now...I am Claudine. 2 weeks ago, I was blank, white in color, a clay-strengthened clay...which means I have no use for most of the people... cos I can't be mold anymore... My function was soft and can be mold in any shape and dry and will be as hard as rock... but not anymore...I did't been mold by anyone and time passed, I dried and hard as a stone...ugly with only white in color...

One day, a man come and took me up... He wants to make something DIY... he look at me...I was so shame... 1st, I never been look by anyone for such loong time; 2nd, I'm USELESS!!! Then he took me to his room... He says, "what can I do with this white white thingy? It can't be mold anymore... " I agreed! He looked at me for such long time then he says, "color it? my color finished... what can I do on it?...(hours later...) CARV it!!!"

Oooh! I shouted. No! Carving means that the sharp sharp thing will cut my body and that is HURT! Fortunately, this man is a lazy person... he's too lazy to get a cutter...hahaha... and he says, "cutter will make the whole too big also and I don't have any craft knife!..." Oh, I'm so lucky! haha...

The man saw a key in his drawer. He says, "Oh well, since I have nothing sharp and this key has a little bit sharp point at the end there... well, just try it..." Oh no! "Mr. Key, can you bend your sharp point so that you won't hurt me?" I whisper to the key... And he says, "I have no idea how to bend. I'm hard, just like you, can't bend anyhow..." The man was about to use the key to cut me and he did a cut and says "Wow! It works! Ooh, I gotta have bath 1st...later will come back.."

THAT IS HURT! There's one cut on my body... "Sorry, I can't help you..."Key said. "I'm a useless thingy. I was a key of a cupboard and now no use already cos the cupboard's lock spoiled. Since that day on, I was lying in the drawer and never come out till today...and I was so happy somebody wanted to use me but I actually hurt you...and cutting clay isn't my function also!!! I'm so sorry..."

Wow, Mr. Key is an useless thing also! and abused by this stupid man. I told him my story... We're same kind, in the same boat... we chatted for a long time... and, he suddenly says, "Claudine, how if later I'll hurt you when the stupid fellow back?" Ooh! I never thought of this.. Well, I told him that I have to "ikut nasib" la... though it's hurt...

Minutes later, the man back. He decided to cut a heart shape on me. When he took up Kenny(Mr. Key's name), I saw tears in Kenny's eyes... I have it in my eyes too... and I heard a whisper, "I love you, Claudine..." I was like "Huh?!" and the man cut on my body again... I was sooo hurt... I saw Kenny say something but I can heard it cos it's too hurt...

Though it just few seconds, a brief ugly heart shape on me... It is hurting me so much already... The man stopped and look.. "It is ugly...not beautiful at all.."and started thinking again... "Claudine, how do you feel? Am I making you pain?" Kenny comforted. "Not really(though it is ssooooo painful, I'm not dare to tell him)... but I want to ask you one thing..."

Me: what were you saying when the stupid fellow took you up?
Kenny: erm... I love you?!
Me: why?
Kenny: I'm not sure... maybe we're so close and in a same situation.. and I have some deep feeling when I know that I have to hurt you though I doesn't mean to be..
Me: Actually I have the same feeling too... ...Oh the man come... Kenny, I love you too! I have you in my heart! so do your best on me!
Kenny: ...alright...(tears) sorry... but i'll do my best to make the best looking heart ever!

The man came... we keep on talking cos Kenny said it might decrease the pain... The man carv me by using Kenny... Harder each time... my speaking tone was up and down as when each time Kenny cut me harder and softer... I saw his tears non stop... He curi-curi wiped away the tears when he near me... I saw it and keeping this in my heart...

Hours and hours and my pain actually decrease... i felt that I'm really in love with him... "DONE! It is so pretty! Im sure _ _ _ _ _ _ will like it" I can't hear who is the name the man said...but I'm pretty?!

Me: Kenny! How am I looking~?!
Kenny: Wow! Nice! But are you still in pain...?
Me: No No! Am I really pretty?
Kenny: Ya! Of course! What for I lie to you? no pain already?

I'm speechless when the man took me up and look at me on the mirror... Wow! I am totally different from what i was! "Kenny! I love you! No pain already! Thanks for your caring..." The man then put us together in the man's drawer... Me and Kenny have sweetest time ever...

One saturday night, the man gave me away to somebody... since that day on, I never see Kenny again.. but i know that, he's always in my heart-the most beautiful heart on me!

"If I had the letters 'hrt', I can add 'ea' and get a 'heart' or a 'u' to get hurt. But I'd rather get 'hurt' than have a 'heart' without 'u'... Kenny, can you hear me?! I'm sure you will..."

*Well... I doesn't plan for a 'love story' at first but I feel that it'll be more interesting if it's so... actually what I really want to bring out is:

1st, Don't look down on yourself! No one in the world created useless by God! Though you might think you don't have any talent now, but it doesn't mean that you don't have any talent later! Like the clay! It doesn't function to be carved but it actually look so nice when it's done!

2nd, in a relationship, both must sacrifice! It might hurt sometimes cos 2 person are diiferent in their own way but both must learn to not making other pain...That is: either change yourself or change others. However, it's hard to change other... in order to "decrease the pain", try to change yourself! Like the key, you can't ask the key to bend but you can use "talking" to decrease and separate concentration on "pain"! Therefore, conversation and communication a relationship also!

Well, God bless you!

Wednesday, September 20, 2006

Does the society need God??

Does the society need God??
this was my debate title for this coming sunday.Final round.
"Does the society need God?"

when we talking about this topic, we usually asking ourself,"do we believe in God", "why do you believe in God?"...........and many more...
My debate team are gathered by dif religion of ppl, some buddhist, some christian, and oso some that do not believe in religion....

So, i try to ask myself. Why do i need God??
This question i had ask many years before,and again i have to ask myself.
and the conclusion is, " I am thanksful that I believe in God,although I never saw Him or hear His voice b4,but i can feel His unsellfish and sacrificed LOVE."
Without God, I will never know where i come from, why am I here on this world,and oso where will I go after this life...........
life will be so meaningless when you dunno why u are here.We are just like rushing for a train,but never ask where is the destination.Life so short on this earth,and most of ourtime is sleep, study and doing something wonder ppl say Life is Bored.

During the time on searching more imformation for this title, many ppl said science and God are oftenly oppose each others. but the information told me,many of the great scientist such as Newton,Edison,Gebany.....are all devoted christian, and they say through the science the glory and appearence of God is revealed.In others word,Science is a gift from God for us to explore it, and through it we can know God more.

thank God for everything!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and again, God had strengthen my faith.........Amen!

*Repost from Leon.

Joseph: this is very nice! Christians, be strngthen;non-christian, don't you touched?! May God bless us all!

Monday, September 11, 2006

Youth! Look at here! Important points!

I was in Stephen Tong's talk jyst now and he pointed useful tips for young people to life our lives!

  1. Salvation is free(from God);victory, you have to work with God!
  2. If it is God's will to let you do this, people who will involve will also get the same touch from God!
  3. Wealth, is the effect but not the motive!
  4. Do not serve your feelings! Cos it will change! But put the truth above all!
  5. Those who are really clever/wisdom, won't show themselve as so; but those who always try to show himself to be clever/wisdom, showed he is only acting to be clever and actually stupid!
  6. KAIROS-greek mythology, god of opportunity

"Running swiftly, balancing on the razor's edge, bald but with a lock of hair on his forehead, he wears no clothes; if you grasp him from the front, you might be able to hold him, but once he has moved on, nobody is able to hold him forever. "

Can describe "opportunity" very well! When you see him close to you, you must ready to hold him! but if you were late, realised his arrival slowly, you can't catch him anymore cos he has no hair behind to let you hold! He comes and left with his wings on his feet... Catch the opportunity whenever you have!

Hope you'll be bless after reading these! God bless!

Thursday, September 07, 2006

What is prayer?

Prayer is the battleground on which we meet the enemy head-on. As S.D Gordon says,

Prayer is man giving God a footing on the contested territory of this earth.
The man in full touch of purpose with God, praying, insistently praying
- that man is God's footing on the enemy's soil.
The man wholly given over to God gives him a new sub-headquarters on the battlefield from which to work out.
And the Holy Spirit within that man, on the new spot, will insist on the enemy's retreat in Jesus the Victor's name.

That is prayer.

Shall we not, every one of us, increase God's footing down upon His prodigal earth?

*Joseph: This is great! I just can't wait to share to you all after reading this on the website! Can you not say "AMEN" after reading this? Can you donothing after reading this? PRAY! NOW!

How long had you ran away from God? When is the last time you pray to God except "before eat, and before sleep" prayer?

Ezekiel 22:30 says "And I sought for a man among them, that should make up the hedge, and stand in the gap before Me for the land, that I should not destroy it: but I found none."

God is searching for people to "stand in the gap" and pray for protection, deliverance and help for others.

Can't you see needy are all around you? Do you know your friend is having a hard time this week? Do you know what is happening people around you? You don't, right? See their heart with the eyes of God!


Monday, September 04, 2006

Take a little time to read a big story

A voyaging ship was wrecked during a storm at sea and only two of the men on it were able to swim to a small, desert like island.

The two survivors, not knowing what else to do, agree that they had no other recourse but to pray to God.

However, to find out whose prayer was more powerful, they agreed to divide the territory between them and stay on opposite sides of the island.

The first thing they prayed for was food. The next morning, the first man saw a fruit-bearing tree on his side of the land, and he was able to eat its fruit. The other man's parcel of land remained barren

After a week, the first man was lonely and he decided to pray for a wife. The next day, another ship was wrecked, and the only survivor was a woman who swam to his side of the land. On the other side of the island, there was nothing.

Soon the first man prayed for a house, clothes, more food. The next day, like magic, all of these were given to him. However, the second man still had nothing.

Finally, the first man prayed for a ship, so that he and his wife could leave the island. In the morning, he found a ship docked at his side of the island. The first man boarded the ship with his wife and decided to leave the second man on the island.

He considered the other man unworthy to receive God's blessings, since none of his prayers had been answered. As the ship wa s about to leave, the first man heard a voice from heaven booming, "Why are you leaving your companion on the island?"

"My blessings are mine alone, since I was the one who prayed for them," the first man answered. "His prayers were all unanswered and so he does not deserve anything."

"You are mistaken!" the voice rebuked him. "He had only one prayer, which I answered. If not for that, you would not have received any of my blessings"

"Tell me," the first man asked the voice, "what did he pray for that I should owe him anything?"

"He prayed that all your prayers be answered."


For all we know, our blessings are not the fruits of our prayers alone, but those of another praying for us. When Jesus died on the cross he was thinking of you

*Joseph: who do you want to be? the first man or second man?

Remember what the Lord said to Abraham when He calls him to out from his father's home?

"I will bless those who bless you, but curse those who curse you.
And through you I will bless all the nations." Genesis12:3

In this case, the Lord will bless the first man and probably curse the second man. However the most important point is, Through you, God will bless the person around us and even all the nations!

Don't know how to bless others? Do the second man's prayer:

"Lord, please answer all the prayer request _ _ _ _ _ _ made as those are according to Your will. AMEN."

*fill the blanks with the persons' name no matter the person you LOVE or HATE!

God bless you!

Sunday, September 03, 2006


感谢神,让我能连续两天作了两首歌. Praise the Lord for the inspiration! But it started of someone inspire me...


每当我离开祢 不再回头
每当我犯罪时 令祢伤心


只因为祢 我还活着
只因为祢 我还活着
28/8/06 11:57pm

Refuge Needed
O Rock divine Refuge dear
A shelter in the time of storm

Be Thou our helper ever hear
A shelter in the time of storm

Keep me keep me
as the apple of Your eyes
Hide me hide me
under the shadow of Your wings

We need not fear life's dark shadow
when we rest under the shadow of God's wings
29/8/06 11:08pm

*Praise the Lord!